Love those kids! My godchild and her twin brother! They help me not to think about all the shit and to see that there are people loving and needing me! :-*
Collapsed. Cried in my car for nearly 1 1/2 hours. Then tried to fix my face with make-up. Didn't work that properly. She told me she hates me. And that I have to cope with it... no matter how. Can anybody PLEASE tell me, how one can use such a strong and hurting word like "hate" in such a context? When the one who's told such things has given everything... for 4 fucking years... and when the one utterancing this shit actually is the one who should be hated????? That's distorted!!!!!!!!! God damn it... I wish I could talk about hate! But I can't. Instead I would rather sleep... and never get up again. :'(
My life's crap... and this is what you look like on one of the shittiest days of the... whatsoever! Only advantage: It can't become much worse... so: think positive!
Life's frustrating sometimes. It simply doesn't work... Perhaps the best I can do is jump off a bridge... At least nobody would be annoyed anymore. :'(
