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this last week or so has been weird, for me. i took a chance on something that i haven't trusted myself to reach out and grab for a long time. unfortunately, for reasons i don't understand - it suddenly fell through, which sucked. i realised a few things about myself - some good, some bad, but i think that i would like to try something like it again.

on the weekend i went away (by away i mean, sat at home with the internet unplugged). it was hard, because i didn't realise how habitually i check facebook, email and twitter. i got lonely pretty fast, but loneliness was kind of what i needed to recuperate.

i started my new job this week, which is nice because i am meeting new people and making them laugh, which is always good. i feel good about the year ahead, and also kind of nervous. there are things i still don't understand about being social, but i'm sure after my complete retardation last year, that anything i do will be better.

my problem with women has almost completely gone away, so i guess that i would like to find a partner sometime in the future, but i suck at doing anything like that, so i don't expect i'll find anyone (i'm terrible at building the confidence to ask people out places (and it's incredibly hard when broke)).

I don't know how to describe where i'm at right now, eclectic thoughts and emotions are swirling in my head again, i feel like some stupid high schooler again. but this year is only 1/12th of the way through and i've already had more excitement than last year alltogether.

i'm looking forward to february.

p.s. if you're a girl, and you think you could put up with me, and like me a little bit, please tell me? i'm shy :P