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So, I kind of need to vent/rant.

Let me start by saying how it sucks to be trumped by sitting at the computer all day/night, rather than spending time with me. That alone sucks enough. Not to mention I haven't heard a nice gesture said to me, besides "I love you", for months now. I am constantly mentioning this at least once a month. Even though we live together it doesn't mean we have quality time together, at all. Anyone can say "You're always together..." Let me just say that just because "we are always together" doesn't mean that time is being spent with each other. I still don't feel it anymore. It saddens me that the only time I've truly seen them try and actually show me how much they love me and said and did things that made me feel like I was special or important, was when they screwed up. I just find it ironic that that's when people try. Our engagement meant the world to me, and although I get the reasoning for why it isn't happening anymore, it still hurts like hell that that was taken away from me. It would break any girls heart. That's supposed to be one of the most important events to ever happen to any girl and when that's taken away from you, that special moment or event or whatever is gone, you break.

With that being said, I love this boy with every bone in my body, I just wish I was treated differently. I'm not treated bad or anything like that, but it would just be nice to be treated differently. I just miss the days when the guys took every moment they had with that girl and cherished it, said things, did things that made girls melt. I guess that treatment should be forgotten, but it's hard when you've seen them do things like that. It's harder when all of those things are gone though. Suddenly you feel less important. Less cherished. Less cared about.

Maybe I'm overreacting, but you can't blame me for saying it would be a nice change for any girl, and wanting it to change for myself. Who wouldn't?