hey.
i haven't been here in a while,
but i bet no one noticed.
it's 4:30 a.m.
i can't sleep,
so i'm ready steven king.
so much shit has happened in these last few months.
after me and nathaniel broke up,
i realised so much stuff about myself,
which has made me a happier person,
actually.
i dated a guy named daniel for three months,
which turned out to be such a bad idea.
he hit me,
and treated me badly,
but i was so scared of being alone.
i got the guts to break up with him,
and felt like i'd lost all of my friends,
which i pretty much have,
seeing as how now all i do is sit around,
smoke, drink and read.
that was a few weeks back,
and i did something really naughty with someone i shouldn't have,
but it was a positive experience from me,
and now i don't have feelings for them anymore.
and now i'm semi-sorta-kinda-idon'tknow seeing someone,
but i'm not really sure if i like them,
but i don't like to hurt people very much,
so i'll try and stop it,
or something.
i think i like troy again,
so this is making my life seem like an intense male-obsessed soap opera.
but i don't think i do?
i just really wish i didn't have any attraction to anyone,
so i could just live with books forever.
that's pretty much my life laid out for you now,
dailybooth.
i'm so sorry that i've been gone for four months,
but i'm back now,
alive and kicking,
sadly.
oh,
and i have red hair now.
i bleached the black out,
and i also have a mullet,
which is kinda cute,
i suppose.
but i really need a new fringe,
but i'm not sure how to do it?
i'm in a much better mood than i was yesterday,
and i'm greatly trying to make up to the people that snapped at.
i'm sitting in library,
writing out some to do lists,
while i watch angel and try to think a little clearer.
