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Well I haven't talked to all of you in quite a while.

Been single for a while now.

Been contempt briefly.

But I am going to keep myself happy.

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Anyway, I am no longer on here it seems.

So follow me on tumblr and I will do the same.
Keep in touch.

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Just felt I should update since my 'daily' booth has turned into a monthly booth. Annnyyywayyyy... I miss dailybooth, but it bores me so quickly.

Life is, okay.


annnd sleep.


ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

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opinions please

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So the Eskimo's have a way of ridding wolves from their villages. What they do is dip a knife in blood and let it freeze. They do this multiple times until the blade is a ball of frozen blood. They stick this into the ground to allow the wolf to smell the blood. The Wolf will lick the blood over and over until it severs it's own tongue without realization. It still tastes the blood and continues licking until it bleeds to death.

I feel like we do this to ourselves as humans a lot in life.

But we can survive if we realize what we are doings.

Lets survive. :) Everyone together.

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I am pleased to introduce the lovely Camilla Rosaline Stardust :)

She is not Medusa
(http://dailybooth.com/jstndusa/9378076)
But she is much healthier :)

I love her so much already.

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I spend so much time cutting, fixing, and combing my hair for one denied reason; to deter myself and others from a face.

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A face that I haven't been able to look at in the mirror without hatred in over 9 years.




For all of my amazing friends on here that were happy to hear about my great relationship I should inform you; it has ended.

We both (mutually) decided that it would be best for me to be single while I am getting better and 'capable,' for lack of a better word, of living.

He asked me if having a relationship was causing me more pain with the psychological problems I have, in which have gotten worse over the last few months. (Lack of meds tends to do so)

For once, I was honest about something that was in fact, hurting me.

He loves me so much that he would rather see me away from him if it meant I be happy.

I love him so much that I would rather see myself miserable and in a relationship, if it meant in doing so, HE would be happy.

This left us deciding on our departure.

It kills me knowing that something in my brain.
Something in my family.
Something in my blood, caused himself pain.

I would feel pain for the rest of my life if it meant he did not have to for even a mili-second.

But for once, I actually NEED to be selfish and put myself above others.
It has gotten to a point where it actually effected my health.

I guess we all need to find the balance between selfishness and selflessness.



Too much of each can destroy you.

@helloRANDOMgoodbye @Whiro @HLDbbz @Hummingbird @beckamire @chapmale @TierneytheLama @Sashaboo @CloudsandStars @meghanskelton @Robdog @PeanutButterLover @myraaa

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Whelp. I havent been on in a VERY long while

Been in a pretty good relationship thats been takin up alot of my time.

But it hasnt all been so good otherwise

Went cold turkey on some psychiatric meds and ended up in the ER

Not such a good idea

trying desperately to get something new to try

This is the first time in life that it's been so bad that i am almost brought to the point of homelessness

but i still have my faith
i still have my friends
and im still alive and kickin
(literally, i just kicked my bed and stubbed a toe ha)

sooo thats it!


@helloRANDOMgoodbye @Whiro @HLDbbz @Hummingbird @beckamire @chapmale @TierneytheLama @Sashaboo @CloudsandStars @meghanskelton @Robdog @PeanutButterLover @myraaa

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Fuck bugs. I want my boyfriend here with me :)