Carmen is a 18 year old female from United States.
About
Hi, my name is Carmen and I currently live in Tulare, California. I come from a Hispanic family, I've now been going to Tulare Union for a year and a half, and I'm currently finishing my first semester. Like most people my age, I've got no clue what I'm wanting do after high school. Or it's not that I don't know what I want do. I know what I want do very well. There are just too many possibilities and I suck at making decisions. So we'll see where life will bring me.
I would call myself a complicated person, but I'm sure we're all pretty complicated. And why would I call myself complicated? Well that's a good question. Let me describe myself, or at least, what I know about myself: I don't get along with many people. I don't like to open up. I'm very reserved. I can't make decisions, and choices drive me nuts. I'm honest. I can be naive. I tend to contradict myself.
I don't get entertained by things that most people get entertained by. I fear crowds, and they freak me out. I'm selective. I'd rather play a video game than go out at night. I'm actually stupid enough to spend money on chap stick. I'm constantly looking for that person who will complete me. I enjoy simple things. My favorite color, or shall I say shade, is purple. I love healthy food. I've got so many games that I doubt I'll ever be able to play all of them.
I find it hard to save up money. I don't like it when people cancel on me. I like to write, I'm considering becoming a writer. I dislike conceited people. I dislike selfish people. I love photography, although I doubt I will ever become a photographer. I live at home with my parents and my sister. I watch a lot of movies.
I don't like when people pretend they know me, I don't even know myself yet and it's been fifteen years. I can't stand immaturity. I always wanted to learn a foreign language like German. I like painting. People tend to hate on me. Most of my pictures on my space are self-portraits. I can't stand when people are judgmental. I wish to cook, but I usually turn my kitchen into a mess. I like to do sweet things for people I like. I don't watch TV. I usually walk too fast for people. I love to spend some time on my own.
I've come to realize who matters, who never did, and who always will. So, I've forgotten about the people in my past, and there's a reason why they aren't in my future. I hate school except for the obvious social reasons. I've got lazy/lack of attendance therefor, I receive bad grades. Having fun is like breathing, it's a necessity to life and, fun, well, it's just what I do baby.
I've been through the ups and downs and I have learned you've always gotta keep your head up, good things happen. Live your own life and be sure to have fun with it. Don't look around and see what everyone else is doing, do what you want to do. I'm learning to appreciate things while I have them and while they're there, but I don't deny taking things for granted as well. I like to look at my life objectively sometimes, it reminds me why I should continue to appreciate what I have.
Often, I'm putting others before myself, but it's not a negative thing to me because I believe if one is content with their life, they should make an effort to bring happiness to another. I've learned empathy is one of the hardest qualities to acquire, and even as you may have it, it can disappear in instances where pride plays a major role, but then again, conquering your pride is a beautiful thing.
