05/5: 13 days till Summer! YAY of summer school! not... it's okay lol I need it though. As I look at the grades that I have right now for my classes... it ain't looking too hot. More like a D,D, F and except for Soc. a B but that won't count toward my G.P.A. because I doing course forgiveness for it. Sigh... I'm not motivated anymore. So Sad. I'm just waiting for Summer to come alreadyyyy. I just want to do things I want to do and not be feeling guilty having fun when I should be studying! HA! Yep Yep. I hope for a good Summer Vaca this year :) WOOT!
p.s. I love my new place! -- my room is greattt!
p.s.s. YAY for Banquet this Friday!! happy/sad.
04/28: Direction. I need to find my direction in life. I have a problem focusing on what needs to be done. I need to learn to deal with distance. It's hard to say the things that you will do and want to be done in your mind but when it comes to completing it I feel unmotivated. Finals are coming around pretty soon... I need to do well. I lack this so call motivation after I realized I'm doing bad. I can't wait till summer comes when I have free time. I get to do things I want to do. For instance, I was talking to my best friend today about how we get distracted by stuff around us and can't focus on completing a task such as homework. Our minds are constantly thinking about on doing artistic things such as drawing or creating something crafty. But, maybe because our minds are build up with inspiration. It's sucks that I can't just do nothing and do something such as that because it takes time. There's no time to do that right now...
04/26: Haven't updated in awhile so here goes my posting! WOW. so a lot have happened. Don't know where to begin so I'm just going to type. Well I pulled my first all nighter for Relay for Life && Kobey's Swap Meet. I felt so tired afterward and sleep never felt so good! Fashion Show for Greenfest was a success even though we got 3rd and that they miscalculated... It's all good at least we placed & got 3rd overall. LMFAO concert: $4, V.I.P. tickets, w/my BF = AMAZING! && slept over :) then Diversity Conference at 9am-4pm long day but went well, our workshop was a success! Then combined social with A-List Props at Peter's house to play board games and chill. Despite a bit of drama, it was good! Later that night, went to a Kickback at Richard's house, play 5 games of B.P. ... drank so much beer... but fun though! both partners Rochelle & Peter were SUPER! :) you both did awesomeeee. Hell YAH! went home and passed out. haha. The next day I had lunch with Rocio, gosh it has been awhile since I saw her! We ate at Claim Jumper and ate some yummy sandwich + fries and caught up on each others lives, walk around g-mont to get stuff for my NEW ROOM! got Jamba (buy 1, get 1 free) sick deal! mmm Acai Powerbooster.. good stuff! Moving this week, and will be officially living there this coming Saturday!! SO EXCITED!!! MY OWN ROOM, WOO <3 Elections for next year's E-Board '10-'11 made me realized that this year is almost coming to an end. So Sad, I'm going to miss it very much. The experience was memorable and all the times we shared with each other has brought us closer than ever. Despite the ups & downs, we in the end became our very own family, some people will be graduating, others will go do their own thing, I will truly miss everyone. I'm sure we all we see each other somehow/someday. I cried this week, I laughed this week, I smiled this week, I loved this week. My boyfriend's speech & his words has my heart. I love you dearly, and I believe this week has gotten us closer. Tears & All. Couldn't ask for anyone better. On another note, I will be going to the John Mayer concert on 8/26 with my BFF's & BF's SO EXCITEDDDD!!! It's going to mucho fun, yeauhhh I know it! :D okay dokay time to take off this mask and work on my essay for a bit than goodnight world!
04/12: Ghosts <3 me & peter. :) hmm I want to change my hair... I need to find some inspirations! a change is needed for the summertime and its been a while since I've done something to do it. At times I accept it and other times I want something new! We shall see... my mama said we're moving sometime soon, maybe in two weeks or less?! I got my dress for banquet! excited for that, can't wait to match my sexy boyfie :) FTS was good if I haven't mention that already! now all there is to focus on is school work/grades... Gah! I'm behind. shoot. Kinda nervous... Anyways is almost Greenfest and I want us (APSA) to place this year... hoping for the best! woo! my baby made me dinner on sat. it was nice, I enjoyed thatttt. hehe.
04/9: As of May I will be living in a new home. Basically my whole life I've moved from apartments, once a house, than back to this old apartment again. Finally, soon to be new beginning at a new location and my OWN room. After sharing a room with my brother all these years, it's time for us to have our own space, event though it has take 20 years for it to happen. I'm okay with it. I'm SO EXCITED!! It's always been my dream to have my own bed, own space, own closet, a room of my own! I get to decorate it, etc. etc. :) woo! no more awkwardness when I have people in my room aka bf lol and ppl walk-in... YAY my cousin promised me that if we moved she will get me a KITCHEN AID MIXER!!! I've been wanting and waiting to get one since FOREVER! AHHH, can't wait!! you don't even know how excited I am! yippieee. But, I have to say I'm going to miss this old place, and the memories that were made... It's time to move on. I like this. I want this. I'm ready.
04/04: Dear Peter M. Zheng, I don't know when but when you do read this blog I just wanted to let you know how I feel. Lately, I've been enjoying your company and it's bad on me that I sacrifice time to do my essay to hang out with you. It's okay, because everyone moment I see you & be with you is all worth it. I do get disappointment at myself for that and when I think about my grades in my classes it gets me worry. It's okay I will get back on track and do my best when school starts off again. I'm just glad I got to see you everyday of this break, it was truly nice and we finally went out to dinner (just me and you). Everywhere I go I think about you, ex. asian market, I knew you needed ramen so I got you some since I don't know when will you actually have time to go get some. I know I haven't told you this in person yet but you are the best guy/boyfriend that I have ever met or had, I don't know what I will do without you... I hear stories of people's relationship all the time but we should only focus on our own, this makes us grow; as a person, and together. I know we haven't been together for that long but it feels like it. Maybe because we started off as friends first and in which made it easier for us to be on this level. I'm still learning about you and I'm pretty sure you are doing the same to me. Once again I'm taking my time out to write this blog and instead of finishing my essay, it's okay this time I actually know what I'm doing lol p.s. I like doing things for you, especially cooking/baking mhm, just little things, I know I can be a hopeless romantic and sometimes cheesy when it comes to things like that. I just want to show my love for you in all the ways that I can. Expect more later on. I like to watch our love grow like a seed into a flower lol I Simply Love You, always. :)
Ain't you the cutest thing ;]
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"Don't Change" -- Musiq Soulchild:
"I'll love you when your hair turns grey boy
I still want you if you gained a little weight, yeah
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change
I was meant for you and you were meant for me,
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need,
Boy the way we are is how it's gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change."
03/31: CLEAN TEETH! yay for getting rid of those stupid stains... yum yum POM Tea good for the heart <3. Ate lunch at Thai Taste with my mama, it was okay... I expected more from the Pad Thai, but the pineapple fried rice was good. Okay time to do my essay.. hopefully get it done today, for reals. IM OVER IT. haha.
03/30: 2nd to last day of March!! Dangg than April > May > Summerrr!! I despise the heat but LOVE the Sunshine & Break of courseeee. Anyways, this weekend has been gooddd; relaxation & hanging out with my favorite peoples :) mhm. Day 2 of Spring Break -- time to get things done! School work... I hate essays especially analyzing them... a skill I ever so lack. Gotta get that done today! So, I'm going to be productive and stay home & tomorrow lunch w/mama & get our teeth clean! yayyyy, its been awhile now lol it's gloomy right now and rain tomorrow/Thursday? oh Spring.
