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hey long time no booth haha

lets see whats new.... well still sick so nothing haha

ummmm oh ya these lyrics are in my head

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....


idk i lost a good freind of mine a year ago....right as i was dealing with my grandmas death, the prior 2 years had been me trying to salavge what was left of our relationship..... and her kinda teasing me and testing me... was a really bad situation for me mentally and emotionally and i should have listend to those around me..... but i really cared for her freindship...we never dated, were going to but i especially then was very slow when it came to relationships cause im just slow relationally part of the problem with her i guess is she wanted me to move faster then i wanted to haha ..... but ya its been 3 years sense we were really good freinds, almost 4 since i met her.....and i cant get over her..... i want to move on, but she is always on my mind haha.... the prob is she hates my guts...the reason right now i do not know.... i was on drugs when we last talked for a shoulder injury and while on the said medication i earased, burned and tore up everysingle communication i had with her... idk haha its pretty pathetic lol..... i just want to be able to look at someone else and doute on them the same affection...but it feels like that part of me is broken, and i want it to be fixed... speacilly cause i have met somone who her personality and qualitys i really like, and we seem to have the same passion and goals in life... and she has got to be one of the most amazing females ever haha but i cant seem to relate to her how i want to.... not because of her, but i almost perpousfully sabatoge myself, and i dont know why haha its getting old, and i dont want her to be a what if... speacilly because i cant grow past a prior relationship haha...... ya never know till you leap but my feet seemed glued to the floor lol....anyways enough said any suggestions haha if not you may laugh at how pathetic i am tonight haha