I really don't even know anymore. I'm just so tired. Physically and emotionally. I'm tired of everything. Everyone. I hate high school. I'm so sick of the judgmental fake bitches, "popular" people, annoying teachers, backstabbing friends, douchebag guys and constant pressure to be prettier, popular and smarter. Nothing I say is ever right. Nothing I do is ever enough. And no matter how hard I try at something, I'm always shot down. I literally don't trust anyone, everyone ends up betraying me in the end anyways. I'm tired of people constantly pointing out my flaws each and every day, as if I don't already see them. I hate sitting in class, knowing the girl behind me is judging my hair and outfit, and the assignment I'm doing is going to be a fail just like all the others. I hate coming home, being to depressed to do anything. And being on fakebook, looking at all these gorgeous girls pictures that get like 35 likes. I'm tired of this hollow, empty, alone feeling I've had most of the school year. I can't remember what happiness feels like, or what it feels like to not be exhausted. I'm constantly in pain. At times may be physical, but it's most often emotional. My heart has been destroyed so many times that I don't think it'll ever be whole again. It's literally been broken 3 times this year; my stupid mistakes. I trust too easily. I've been burned so many times that I don't even know what trust is anymore. And on top of it all, my parents look at me like I'm their fuckup child. I walk through the halls with my few friends, with a big giant fake smile on my face.. so nobody knows. Cause they'll think I'm weak. And nobody likes a weak, broken person. The only time I feel like I'm really okay is when I sleep. And that beautiful moment when I just wake up, before I suddenly remember everything. I hate waking up in the mornings, cause I know my day will be filled with awkward situations, sadness and feeling alone. It's pointless, really; to put on cute clothes, do my hair and put on makeup. It's not like anyones really going to care, it's not going to make people accept you for who you are. What's my point of this..? Basically, I fucking hate high school and what I've become because of everyone.
hi k so my lifes going teffific and greaaaat, & then THIS happensss...hoping its not gonna interfere with the amazing guy i call mine, but idk, these past few daysss.. <3
WHO AM I KIDDING I CAN'T DO THATTTTT.. fuck internal conflict. fuck fuck fuck it all.
---picture raapeee ? thankss (;
