I decided to try doing that use the first picture you take thing, whether you like it or not...
"why am i so afraid of the night
my silhouette it taunts me
my lack of faith in this beautiful life
my knowing of it haunts me
i'm haunted and know i should be afriad.
lay awake at night
cry,
you know it's not alright
to feel like you're falling into nothing
you can learn to fly
just call his name, just call his name
suddenly i wonder why i feel so alone
i know there's something out there
thought i'd suck it up and do it all on my own
wish i'd known he does care
i'm haunted and i know i should be afraid"
"I want to wish you well
I didn’t watch you go
Cause I suppose I don’t know how
I, I will remember you
Not the way you left but how you lived
And what you knew
I, I want to feel your hands
I want to feel your fire burning
Right from where I stand
I’ll find my way
Cause you showed me how
I, I want toknow it’s you
When I hear your voice inside my head
Inside my room
I, want to touch the sky
I want to see the stars twinkle
Like they were your eyes"
Today I managed to wake up with the best intentions to do work and then completely and epically fail at doing any of it. This means that I have to essays to do in the space of one on top of revision and learning a monologue.
This isn't good...
Oh and how the fuck is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time, this is getting ridiculous and I hate it :(
"Was it love or recognition that has
Healed this man's condition
I'm hoping and I'm wishing that
This bird won't fly away
We can see life hand in hand,
The green, the blue, the rough, the sand
And in our time and in our land
We'll savor everyday
And oh, how our glory may fade,
At least we've learned
Some things along the way
You took me from my bubble
Knowing my defense was weak
And you sat there and you listened
Any time I chose to speak
You gathered from my pleas to
You that I am but a clown
And I fear only a hero can defeat
These demons now"
At about 2' o clock last night, i had the urge to start drawing so here's what I drew. Its by no means anywhere near being finished but it's what I have so far and tbh I'm happy with it.
If there's anything you've done recently you're proud of, show it?
"I've never told a lie,
and that makes me a liar,
I've never made a bet,
but we gamble with desire,
I've never lit a match,
with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames,
are getting out of control.
Call me a name,
Kill me with words,
Forget about me,
It's what I deserve,
I was your chance,
to get out of this town,
but I ditched the car,
and left you to,
Wait outside,
I hope the air will serve to remind you,
that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,
and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest."
Had another good day, and yunno when you have a run of pictures which all look terrible, well here's the best.
It says a lot.
"Tonight, we lie awake
Remember how the coffee made us shake on those long drives?
One more long night
Another seven days
Heartbeat racing
The interstate, my home tonight
For one more long night
I'm sure as hell the happiest I've ever been
We get high, we let go
We've got more than we know
My friends are a different breed
My friends are
There's a ghost in this room
I think I'll name it after all of you
And watch it hang over my bed like decorations celebrated
Memories, they came and went in light of all the time we spent
Listening to everything our parents told us not to take in"
So happy right now!!
On such a high. Skins is on later tonight, I have my weekend sorted and looking forward to going outtt.
Had my apple interview part 3 today, and it went alright. I don't expect a job there in the slightest, tbh I'm just glad i got to meet the people i did and to be there at 16 when everyone else was like 26, 27 was crazy.
"so this is where the outcome unfurls and the truth is being told
a cloud has gathered over my head and now i know
infidelity and my good friend ecstasy doesn’t work, it makes you worse
I’m feeling so guilty about the things i said to my mum when i was ten year old
I’m feeling so guilty about any old shit
and how i think my missus is fucking every guy that she looks at
this is it, this is it, this is it, this it
the end was always coming and now its here
so this is the grand finale
the crescendo of demise
this is the happy ending
where the bad guy goes down and dies
this is the end
with me on my knees and wondering why?
cross my heart, hope to die
its my own cheating heart that makes me cry "
So Eagle Vs Shark is a film that all my friends seem to hate, but I love :)
I dunno if anyone's seen it, or if you have any films that you probably shouldn't love but you do?
Just got back from skiing and had an awesome time
Thinking of getting tattoo but unsure of what to get.
Third stage of my apple interview tommorow, pretty sure it will be the last for me as they so far haven't worked out that I suck :)
"Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
I fell in love at the seaside
I handled my charm with time and slight of hand
Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
I fell in love at the seaside
She handled her charm with time and slight of hand, and oh
But I'm just trying to love you
In any kind of way
But I find it hard to love you girl
When you're far away
Away
Do you want to go to the seaside?
I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go
But I fell in love on the seaside
On the seaside
In the seaside"
Been feeling like I really need to see the sea more.
Finished college today for the half term ( thank god), flunked my maths test but its not too important so i'm not worrying. Recenently I've just had this feeling like its the calm before the storm, like something really big is right around the corner and its going to shake things up.
I know this isn't exactly the most flattering picture but I'm tired xd
"I aint scared of lightning
Come on and do your worst
If they gave degrees
For cheating destiny
Then man
I got a first
No I aint scared of lightning
It's the same old empty threat
I've been standing proud
Beneath the gathering cloud
And man
I ain't dead yet
No I ain't scared of lightning
And thunder never killed
I was born in a summer storm
I live there still
Yeah I was born in a summer storm
I live there still "
Finally this day is almost over, been doing maths revision (hence the return of the nerd glasses) for a test tommorow for the last 3 hours and still have no idea what I'm doing.
Heading skiing on Saturday and can't wait.
Its snowing here again :)
