Sleep at 4, up at 6, run at 9:30, tom 1030-1145, sleep 12-2, nothing/cleaning until Kyle gets here after work. (11:30) Boring and lonely day. Working out in between everything; fuck my self esteem
From yesterday. Got really freaked out after kyle left, memories of years ago. Super freaky and weird. Do not want. Played online checkers with Christel in the bath, etc. Whatever day
Woke up, tuesday plans got cancelled. Hung around with ky and finally went to his house for a few minutes.. not too bad. Went to the pier to walk around, hungout with a horseshoe crab along shore. It was an okay day, but it feels like a weird night.
From yesterday, went to sleep at 8 and didnt get a chance to upload. Adam didnt like smoking, went to the beach with Kyle and went on THOMAS THE TURTLE lol. Pretty calm day.
Went to the beach party for like 20 minutes with Kyle today. Adam,Ky, and Christel are sleeping over and we're gonna smoke (Adam's first time, haha!) uhh thats it : )
Change of plans last night; went to christel's instead lol. Very bad day with kyle but its allright now.. Fuckface is gone 4E now and maybe things will be better and maybe not. Watched fireworks w/ christel today and went shopping. NEW VACUUM and stuff
I'm just trying to figure out who I am and how to be comfortable with myself and everything and everyone all around me. Things are constantly changing and they're standing still at the same time. Things are confusing. This is me.