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    For some reason I have the sudden urge to try weed and see what it's like to get high. I don't really want to though because I don't approve of drug use...

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    August 4th, 2011

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    Oh God. I'm in that mood again. You know the mood where you just want to curl up in a ball and cry? I feel like I'm useless and annoying. I feel like everyone would be better off with out me. I feel scared. I'm scared I'm going to lose all my friends. I'm scared I'm not going to make it anywhere with my life. I'm scared because I don't want to be alone anymore and it feels like I'm going to be forever. I'm scared because I feel like I have potential, but it will never be used because I'm too scared that I won't be able to do anything useful with it. I'm scared. I've been told a million times that I shouldn't be scared of the future, that it holds great things for me, but I don't know if that's true or not because the future is unpredictable. I don't want to end up as a nobody who lives on the streets. I don't want to be that person everyone walks away from. I don't want to be. I want to die right now, but I'm afraid if I do, I'll miss out on something amazing. I feel vulnerable, and I just don't know anymore. I know I'm only 15 and I should be having a good time while I can. It doesn't matter how many times I hear that everything is going to be okay because nobody knows that for sure. I wish I could be numb and not have any feelings for the next little while.I really do...


    Also, I feel stupid for posting this on here, but I just needed a place to rant. Sorry for flling up space on your livefeed/home on here.

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    August 4th, 2011

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    My sleeping paterns are fucked. I can't fall asleep until like six in the morning and then I wake up at like four in the afternoon.

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    August 3rd, 2011

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    I almost forgot to booth today!
    Watching Teen Mom waiting for MTV Live & 1Girl 5 Gays to come on :D

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    August 2nd, 2011

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    Chilling with my rabbit and watching Jepordy. My mom, sister, and I usually watch it and see who can get the most answers so naturally since I watched it alone, I got almost hafl the questions right.

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    August 1st, 2011

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    WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?!?!?
    I couldn't sleep so I got some new music. Now I can't sleep. I'm going to go see if I can't find some NyQuil or something and knock myself out :D
    Night DB :)

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    August 1st, 2011

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    Noodles in a cup and Mean Girls. Sounds like the perfect night to me :P

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    July 31st, 2011

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    I ordered eight new books today. Six for me and two for one of my bestfriends birtday present. :D

    I got Forever - Maggie Stiefvater
    Twisted - Sara Shepard
    Plague - Michael Grant
    I Am Number Four - Pittacus Lore
    City of Fallen Angels - Cassandra Claire
    Clockwork Prince - Cassandra Claire
    & two others I won't name in case my bestfriend creeps my dailybooth.

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    July 30th, 2011

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    I just finished reading The Help by Kathryn Stockett because I couldn't fall asleep and now I can't stop crying. It is an amazing book and I strongly suggest it to anyone who loves books. It is probably my favorite book of all time right now. I love it so much. I really don't want it to be over.

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    July 30th, 2011

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    Did you know there's adifference between awe and aww? Awe is when you see something amazing like "He was starring in awe." and aww means like when you say "aww" when you're sympathetic or see something cute. I just leaned that. Yay! Lesson of the day leaned and it's only 12:11 am. :D

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    July 29th, 2011