work suckkkkked
LQ is no fun when DISRESPECTFUL children from youth groups, of all people, decide they like to come and be demanding.
*crys* waaaaah i wanna change my codename, Marshall BeaniWeeni. waaaaaah my laser isnt working, BeaniWeeni. waaaaah how do you play laser tag BeaniWeeni. waaaaah i hate my life, BeaniWeeni, save me. soooo, glad i'm off for my birthdayyyy :D
other than work sucking, my day--well it also sucked haha
last night was a bummer because i realized how fucked i am. i ruined it with my own hands and now i can't fix it. basically, i suck. you know the saying you don't know what you have until it's gone? well, take my advice dollies, hold on to what you have with every bit of strength in you. don't get mad when someone wakes you up in the middle of the night because they just want to talk to you. don't get upset when they text you 8 times because they are worried they might lose you. remember all the little jokes you have and laugh like you won't have them in two years. embrace the person you care for most because if you're like me, no matter how hard you try, no one will ever compare to them. don't lie because thats what will hurt them to most.
i remember every single time i would fall asleep i would pray i'd dream of us. litterally. i'd block every other thought so the only thing in my concious would be you and i could spend a straight 8 hours with you, no interuptions, no lies, nothing but love.
and guess what, i still do that every night
it would've been 3 years this May.
on Friday this girl told me i had a way with words. i was pretty excited she had said that, it was a nice ego boost, but then last night happened. last night i realized i can't talk my way out of this one like i had planned to.
i don't even think i can wait it out. i destoryed us.
but my god, imma try my best to get you back.
i can't give in. because honestly, i love you.