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    So the other night at work I had a truck order that was over twice the amount I usually get! It was brutal! All the constant heavy lifting, heaving, and pushing really wears yah out I'm tellin yah! Haha, naw but I still finished the whole thing. BY MYSELF thankyouverymuch. Very proud of myself. Alicia also texted me earlier yesterday to tell me if this new girl works out I'll be pretty much set on second shifts which I am completely enthused about. I already saw the up coming schedule where I work like 3 second shifts! Getting excited. I can maybe get a life back haha. Maybe. I can't believe I've already worked here for, what, 8 or 9 months! That's awesome.
    Actually now that I look back at it, it has been exactly one year since my last day of high school. Holy moly! So much has happened in one year, it's incredible! In another month I will have been moved out of my parent's house for a whole year, and I haven't even moved back. That's so awesome I'm so proud of myself. Granted, yeah I've definitely needed help here and there, but I'd like to think most of it was me and I'm pretty excited about that. So far, life has been pretty amazing after high school that's for sure. I definitely miss not having so much responsibility, but having the extra time even when you feel you have no time at all is worth it. I think I've definitely worked hard enough to deserve where I am in life right now.
    I need to start making some extra money here on the side or something though. I wanna replenish my savings account that I had to dive into to pay electric last month and some money to go see my damn boyfriend now and then. Granted, I dont have a lot of time off with work, but even just a day or two really. It's the gas money that kills - not only that - but my awful miles per gallon I get in my Jimmy. Brutal. I know it's gonna be a while until he can make it down here and find a job so I'm gonna try to do what I can do to see him. It honestly really really sucks to finally have a boyfriend and never be able to see him. YES. It is all I complain about anymore - get over it >:P

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    4 hours 17 minutes ago

  • angure commented on DHenryRN's picture

    Yeah I know. It might be worth it though.

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    12 hours 7 minutes ago

  • angure commented on bbbmc's picture

    OKAY. Let me make my point like I have to everyone else.
    I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING ALONE IN THIS HOUSE. I am completely alone all the time besides these cats which just make me sounds crazy talking to them. Being alone like this is starting to mess with my head. He is NOT moving in until he has a job and can pay his share. So who knows how long that's gonna be. I'm guessing it's not gonna be for a couple months at least. So the way I look at it is a win-win for me no matter what. 1- I won't be alone all the goddamn time in this house &2- I will have someone to help me pay the bills. And you know, if we don't work out, then at least I had someone to help me for a little while because I can't find anyone to move in. I know it's quick, but he has nothing keeping him up there and he wants to be closer to me. This is the cheapest solution for him and the best solution for me.

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    15 hours 16 minutes ago

  • angure commented on bbbmc's picture

    Lol. I knew you'd find out.

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    15 hours 45 minutes ago

  • angure commented on DHenryRN's picture

    Fricken! That's what I hate the most! Seriously, why do you get stabbing pains in your butt and bladder when it's suppose to just be your uterus. Ughh! I hate it. I definitely think imma ask about Mirena next time I go in though. Or maybe sooner.

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    15 hours 45 minutes ago

  • angure commented on angure's picture

    I am interested.

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    1 day 5 hours ago

  • angure commented on angure's picture

    Is it expensive?

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    1 day 10 hours ago

  • angure commented on angure's picture

    I just feel like a completely different person and I'm not so sure if I like this new person yet. It's a lot to deal with. It's like I'm getting my period for the first time - it's scary and I don't know what to do. I knew how to handle myself before but now I have no idea what to do to control myself. I really don't know if the meds will work and I can't afford to spend 60$ on prescriptions every month. I have been journaling like crazy the past couple days, which does help, but there's always more. James is a really good listener. He listens to me for hours sometimes and never complains. He puts up with so much of my shit and that's what bothers me. I don't want to get to the point where I become an annoying and nagging girlfriend. I feel like I'm in a constant struggle for his attention every day all day because I am too damn needy. I don't like who I am on these hormones.

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    1 day 15 hours ago

  • angure commented on angure's picture

    Lol no darling you're fine. When Rachel invited me over the first thing I asked her is if she had talked to you lately at all. We all missed you darling, and we are all going to miss you so much while you're gone. You have to give me an address to write to you!

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    2 days 5 hours ago

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    Major mood swings.
    I'm gonna talk about yesterday with all the girls, but I'm gonna talk about today do far. Not only have I've gotten barely any sleep since when I arrived home from last nights festivities but it's been brutal. I have had tears just quite literally pouring out of my eyes today for reasons I can't necessarily point out. I know that being on third shift is tough for me considering I'm awake while James is asleep and I'm asleep while he's awake so we only get a few opportunities to talk each day. &When we do talk, it feels like it's nothing of substance, and rather me just complaining about something from my day. All the while he just sits back and agrees with everything I say... The same phrases get used throughout every conversation we have and I feel like such a broken record. It's something I am worth putting up with because I just want to talk with him and it's apparently something kinda hard to do. Then I get upset every time we hang up because it's never longer than 20minutes it feels like - which I shouldn't complain about because that is actually longer than most couples talk - but I guess I get so upset because it's not like I have many other forms of communication with him. I drive to his house everyday and spend the day with him. No - I like 190miles away - something I don't think I'll ever get used to. So basically my moods have been bouncing back and forth between angry, solum, depressed, lonely, happy, and sad all day long. Which is saying a lot considering my day is just beginning. At this point all I feel I do as a girlfriend is bitch and complain which just makes me completely crazy. I don't want to be the crazy bitchy girlfriend. I don't know what to really do though.
    Ughhhh. I'm so flustered over that just... Last night @RachelRequiresRepair invited me over to hang out. Then @KirstenLeigh just kinda invited herself over and then Maddy showed up. So last minute game night I suppose. Scrabble and Quelf. I hate to see Kirsten leave here so soon.

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    2 days 11 hours ago