Do you have anyone that when they're gone even if it is just for a little while—as little as a few days—it physically and mentally pains you? I feel my heart is a little heavier, I have a knot in my throat, chest, and stomach, and I'm restless. All I can do is worry about him. It's not a kind of worry that would make one suspicious or jealous or anything, but the kind of worry that makes me wonder if he's happy, is he getting enough sleep, did he smile or laugh a lot today, does he feel healthy, is he being treated as well as I know he deserves, am I insane for feeling this alone in such a short span of time or does he feel the same way, etc, etc. I keep doing things that remind me of him to try and ease it. I keep looking at his picture, I close my eyes and pretend that if I open them, he'll be right here to give me a big hug and a kiss. It's moments like these, when we're not in direct contact, that make me realize how important he is to me. I almost think that I don't fully comprehend these emotions myself... Some might think I'm being dramatic and perhaps I am, but I think it's so awesome and I can be moved in such a drastic way by one person. But if you don't have someone in your life you feel such a strong urge to have and love, I feel so sorry for you. You should go fine someone like that.
