when i was little i often made crowns out of my necklaces-- in my mind, making myself into a more exotic type of princess.
"..I told him that it was true, something did Trouble me...it was a thing that not only Surpriz'd me, but greatly perplex'd me, and that I knew not what Course to take, unless he would Direct me: He told me with great Tenderness, that let it be what it wou'd, I should not let it Trouble me, for he would Protect me from all the World."
I fought the good fight; I fought the GREAT fight if you want to know the truth of it. I’m still proud of my immune system; each member of my family has been catching this cold. Normally, I catch things right away, but this time I outlasted everyone.
But I’m only human after all, and living with a bunch of sick people finally got to me.
Shrugs.
I’m planning on this being a fleeting thing.
PLANNING.
The banner on my cell phones has said “plans” for years. Sure, a nod to my love of death cab, but it’s sick in a way.
I want plans more than anything, I try to map things out for me somehow every day, yet I’m still left without directions.
“I want to go to Princeton…I don’t know why, but I think of all Harvard men as sissies, like I used to be, and all Yale men as wearing big blue sweaters and smoking pipes…I think of Princeton as being lazy and good-looking and aristocratic—you know, like a spring day. Harvard seems sort of indoors…”
this side of paradise.
the young Amory is hilarious.
once again the dessert isn't mine.
my foot is there because i'm going to the legit podiatrist next week. my only complaint is that it's not sooner. my foot's been hurting (in the spot where my finger is) since black friday. i have no idea why. it hurts to walk. it has been a huge problem.
i'm re-reading this side of paradise.
i've considered it my favorite book for years--time to really see if it's true.
either way, i love it so much. always for the writing. not the plot.
every page has highlights or pen marks.
my brother's girlfriend became an official RN today. it was neat going to the pinning ceremony.
she'll be part of the family soon. i'm excited.
ummmm...probably because this semester was hell semester.
yep. definitely it actually.
these very quick photos are from last night, before @zachthesith and i went to see the nutcracker ballet.
i love ballet so much.
if i had it all to do over, i'd have danced at a serious studio, and tried being a real ballerina for a while.
hope all is well everywhere.
i'll try not to completely disappear again. @elizavacious you especially...i need to finally write to you again.
i have been wishing you well in my head all along, promise.
just school...ugh.
SO grateful for this break.
ALSO i so wish i had girl friends to buy christmas presents for :(
i'd get such cute things. and wrap it so prettily. @mauralikesstuff you know...i love you to death, but i can't get you the girliest of things...
and other than my mom...pretty much all the gifts i need to buy are for boys.
for the cooler months i really want perfume the color of bourbon or whisky. i don't know. something darker than my usual. serious and rich.
saw @mauralikesstuff tonight for the first time in soooo long. and i had such a good time. makes me hate her being away.
of course @zachthesith was there too.
nice night.
tonight my exboyfriend told me about a supposedly fleeting crush he had on a girl. poor thing. he didn't know that at that very moment he set me free. at least, i always said i would be free, once i heard that. despite the excuses. and he had all night, that we could have talked about it. and he brings it up as i'm opening the door to get out of his car. i'm still reveling in these mixed emotions.
but i think it's a good thing.
hello new life (i'm still working on you...you're rather shabby at the moment, but one day i think we'll both be proud of each other).
my home away from home keeps becoming more me, and i'm very pleased.
college is keeping me busy.
@elizavacious i wouldn't neglect you so much if you were physically near. i've said it before, but you're hearing from me more frequently soon. the last couple weeks were academic hell, but there is breathing room now.
(i really, really am missing the presence of a girl friend these days).
and @mauralikesstuff it has been too long. i had an english major obligation this saturday, so obviously i didn't make it to pride. but is your car fixed yet? will i see you again soon? or should zach and i find our way to you?
