I love you more than all of my friends combined but because of what I've done, I have to let you go.
I don't want you to have to choose between me and her. I hate watching you step around me to make everyone else happy.
Ignoring you hurts both of us but I'm afraid it's necessary. I cry every night thinking about how much I've hurt you and I'm so so sorry.
I know watching me befriend someone you don't approve of hurts you and am perfectly aware of the fact that you're starting to give up on me... I don't blame you.
You're the best best friend I have ever had.
I'm sorry I promised you I would never hurt you but I backed down.
Despite all that please know that I'll never forget you, I'll always think of you and that I will always love you. No matter what.
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I know you bought me up to be nothing but myself and aways be proud of who i am but sometimes you don't realise you make me feel completely the opposite about myself i've always been able to be free spirited and such but I am free so free infact sometimes I just want someone to hold me close and tell me everything will be okey and it's perfectly fine I like boys and girls I'm bi yes there's a label and loads of people know how I feel I just don't know how much more you guys can accept from me so when it comes to me doing something new I always worry if it will be the last step of acceptance..
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You treat me so well some days, make me feel so amazing and beautiful..then the next day you don't even say hi to me. You ignore me.
It's like you take away all the pain, all the hurt...then make it twice as bad.
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I HATE Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars.
I think it's really shallow. I give all my respect to him. I know the song was intended to sound sweet and it does.
But when I listened to it for the millionth time today, I realized the lyrics only talked about her physical appearance.
Her eyes.
Her lips.
Her face.
Her hair.
Her smile.
She's perfect.
She's amazing.
Is that really all you see?
Because, honestly, that's all anyone ever sees.
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Everyone keeps saying nothing's wrong. They say that they still want to be my friend. 'I still love you,' is what they tell me.
And yet why do I feel so isolated?
Why do people leave rooms to avoid me?
Why do the looks everyone gives me make me feel like I'm dirt, like I'm a whore, like I'm unworthy of love?
None of it fits. And I just wish people could tell me why they hate me and why they think I'm filth..
I'd rather have people stop being my friend than pretend.
It just hurts so much :/
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I know you think I hate you but I don't.
I know you think I ignore for the hell of it but I do it for a reason.
I know you think that I think of you as a slut but I don't.
I know you wish you never met me so you didn't have to hurt so much.
I'm sorry for hurting you.
I'm sorry for making you feel like crap.
I'm sorry for judging you.
I'm sorry for not having the balls to say this to your face.
But you have to know. . . when I blatantly ignore you, it hurts me more than it hurts you.
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I always lose my friends. No matter how perfect they are.
I manage to get rid of them without meaning to and I end up remembering memories I had with them years later, realising what a hoe I've been. And yet. . . I don't change.
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Everyday I wake up and find myself doing the same things. My life is a routine of busy shit in school, friend dramas and coming home to parents who constantly tell me how I'm such a disappointment.
I wish I had better life.
I want to die.
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I hate people who criticise my love life. I'm in love with a girl, but she lives 4000 miles away! Its like we have a connection, but no one else can see it. I hate the little comments like 'it will never work' 'how can you love her?' It actually makes me physically sick, because I love her with all my heart and no one can see it. I can understand people being sceptical and unsure of what I am doing, but I thought my best friends could at least respect me and be happy for me? I don't know, maybe that is too much too ask...
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