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    Just finished le prayers. Got ishaa left and I'm home freee...until it starts back up tmrw at 4:30am anyway. Ohh, the life of the Muslim.

    Well young ladies and gents I also prayed a very special prayer called: istikhara! Yikesss! This is my first time ever, I don't want to abuse my privileges tampoco..although I know that's.impossible with Allah who is the most gracious the most merciful. But that's just how I feel.

    Here's a link to the prayer. Just in case someone may be in need of guidance, always remember Allahu akbar (God is the greatest)

    http://islam.about.com/od/prayer/a/istikhara.htm

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    8 hours 51 minutes ago

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    My London went to the groomers today :)

    She already knew what was coming to her as soon as we got into the salon, poor baby....she looks so nasty right now. But oh well, it'll grow out soon enough. (:
    Meanwhile though, i went to csub to hang out with Melissa. She's doing good Alhamdidullah. It was nice catching up with her.

    I've never seen SOO many muslim girls (outside of the masjid) it was cray cray. Coming from a school twice the size of csub, but only seeing luterally 1-2 Muslim girls around campus is kind of like Omgg this is soo cool!!

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    1 day 12 hours ago

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    Just chillen like a villain.

    My sis just texted me she just passed her 6hour practical exam...ay dios mio. Congrats to her, one step closer to being a certified hair cut chick. I'm supposed to go into the schools salon this Saturday, she wants to dye my hair since they have to do services on people. I told her do whatever you want except noo bleaching my hair. I finally got my hair back to its natural wavy state and when its bleached too much it lies like a limp noodle...but that's what she said ;) lol

    Okk off I go to buy a DELICIOUS salad at subway. They are seriously SO GOOD. I'm feeling lazy but I MUST go running afterwards. I wanna get back into shape doe.

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    2 days 10 hours ago

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    Spending my memorial day weekend here at the ER. -______-
    Been here for a few hours y todavia nada, just met a wannabe rapper from Compton who found God, alhamdidullah. And a lady who got her foot broken by her man and decided to leave instead so they wouldn't put charges on her bf. Cycles of violence. Thankfully some lady from foot ministries (this ghetto church with a tatted up pastor ex con, drug dealer evrything else) works closely with the homeless and prostitutes of bakersfield. Thankfully she intervened after the lady shared her story with me...GOOD because I didnt know how to respond to that.

    I dont rike being here...this is the same hospital my mom died in. Trying not to freak out, thanks therapy for that one.

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    3 days 8 hours ago

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    seriously, this gigantic scratch that goes over my face is all I can think about. When the only skin you show in public is your face and hands you start caring a little more about scars on those places. I have a few cuts and burns from work on my hands and they utterly depress me..I'm just going to be those Muslims that wear gloves too. Lmfao Jkkkk

    Yesterdays talk was cool in helping me see that some Muslims are not that fantastic. Le vamos a poner zamilah a esta muchacha, tiene 24 de esas y ya tiene 7 años de matrimonio. O_O so even though were only two years apart, casi parece mas como que fueran 20 años. The weird part is that she's an american, but she's not a convert...but still I think living in amurrrika would grant you a little more relaxed mentality about Islam.
    Well she's like desperate for friends, and decided to take me on as one of them. Pero es biennnn rara esa chava...creo que se le olvida that 1) I'm a convert 2) I'm two months into Islam. There are some converts who NEVERR become ready to dress covered up or wear hijab...like this one lady in our group...shes probably like45 and she can't bring herself to wear it, but we all have our momen5 when were each individually ready to give up or take on certain facets of Islam. So I'm like Yeahh you should feel excited that I'm even wearing my hijab out in public. Y luego me dice una vez like super backhanded compliment: wow your makeup is soo pretty, your heels are soo tall etc etc. But inshaAllah soon you'll start wearing "proper hijab". By that she meant wear your hijab and everything that emcompasses it, no makeup, no heels, no jeans. I was like Okk?? Brushed it off whatevrr. After the dawa conference, we went back to her house and she gave a hijab so that i "could start dressing like a proper Muslim" earlier that day she had caught some random Arab dude staring at me when we were walking to her house. But ever since I converted, arab men hella stare at me because they're trying to figure Wtf i am since they can tell I'm not an arab like them. Lol. Pero a Ella no le parecio. So then she gave me some underscarves and told me that I need to cover up MORE of my face if men are going to be looking at it. She's like it needs to cover almost all your forehead and the sides of your eyebrows. Ohh k laaaa..Im still learning how to even put on a basic hijab people. -_-

    So she's been asking me to hang out like every single day ever since, but she rubbed me the wrong way. A mi no me gusta que ni mi propio padre me diga lo que deberia de hacer, mucho menos otra muchacha. haaa. So the yemeni born Muslims that were actually born and raised in a muslim country are more relaxed than her. My sister asked zamilah if shewanted to come to the wedding party with usand she was like are people going to be dancing to music....she was like yes...its a party. And that she flipped on her, que le dijo why would you ever invite you to go do something haram and all this other stuff and that she waslike are you gonna go and my sister lied to her and said no im not. Ahahahahaha
    Some people need to CHILL.

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    3 days 16 hours ago

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    Tis not be about thepicture, tis be about le entry.

    Soo many thoughts to share, its 3am haha that's funny when i was in college I'd find myself always up at 3am writing in my journal. I guess somethings dont change, except now its gone from.paper to electronic ajd of course everyone.can read it. But whatever, I digress.

    Ok so I dressed up today, makeup (a lot to cover the hideous side of my face) hair, heels..the whole nine yards and OMFG I curled my hair!!! I seriously hadn't curled.my hair since like December. I had forgotten how beautiful I looked once I was all done up, and by no.means do I mean that in a conceited way. but when you from dressing up every single day to never even showing your hair its almost as if you forget what you looked like. But then the funny part was that since I was showing arm skin I obviously couldn't leave my house like that and I was wearing a shit ton of makeup like I said. So I put on my abaya put my hijab on in s very relaxed/loose manner because I had done my hair and I didn't want it to mess up, so then to make up for that i wore my sunglasses before even stepping outside my house (which.under normal condition is like ew douche status) so I get to le party which is in a hall y alli se ve un poco de todo. Girls dressed up in traditional eastern clothes, girls in westernized skirts dresses etc and strict adherent Muslims who don't even show their hair around the rest of us (which is halal((allowed))) so Im like shocked for about 20 minutes straight first of all OMFG I could notttt get over the beauty of these womyn!!!!!!!!! They were all drop dead gorgeous!!:0 our Hijabs truly do cover our beauty up..for good reason though. Anyways, so they ask me to go dance and its all Arabic music. Pues sabe como chingados se bailaba esa madre pero bien que le hice el intento. Mexicans or anyone really don't dance like the Arabs do, its like a lot of belly dancing, hip swaying things. so I got an impromptu dance lessons and some things i picked up, but some others I was like no, mejor me siento because I'm just going to embarrass myself right now.
    Ahhh then my phone vibrated but i had no text, which means its a salat notification ...I could tell people were like weird. I was like umm are we gonna bust out in salat right now or what? Awkward....so you see some womyn cover back up, head to the back and start praying while pitbull songs are blasting. Loudly. And since pitbull is mah nigga I was over breaking it down.on the dancing floor instead of going to the back to go pray. But then might I add it was only about 3% of the womyn that went to the back, I guess we know who's going to heaven. Haha
    When we get to judgement day, the very first thing allah will ask us about is our salat...yikessss.

    Yee so it was soo much fun!!!!!!! But soo weird. dancing (which is haram...even around the same sex) music (also haram) womyn in the back making salat, a photographer taking pictures of the bride but the rest of the womyn quickly covered up in their face veils.

    Takeaway message: first of all, I learned to be a lot more strict with my hijab and from now on not let a single male ever look at me ever again without my hijab and proper clothes. why? Because a womyns beauty is so precious, and it makes me that much More precious when you choose to only show it to a small amount of people. Like when I go out and I know theres going to be a lot of men around I make sure to wear my abaya instead of just covered up clothing. And my sister says ok Gisi calm down you act.as if you're so hot and every man wants you. But its like nah, its soo not even like that. She's missing the whole point, but I'm sure there are many others who think the same way she does.
    Lesson 2: Islam is about compromising. Reconcile you're differenf worlds and make a new THIRD SPACE (soja anybody..? Anna lol)
    Lesson 3: dont marry an Arab damn it. I'm too tired to share the second part of this story but ill do so tmrw mejor.

    Main point: after repeated failed attempts at setting me up for marriage today they went at it again. I DON'T WANT TO MARRY AN ARAB, I AM PINCHE LOCA MEXICANA FEMENISTA.
    So they tried setting me up with a white Arab..not race white light skinned arab. More of that tmrw...

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    4 days 1 hour ago

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    Having some quick lunch before I go back to Shafter and get ready to go to a moose party!:0

    1. It's SUCH a pet peeve having to put my hijab on wet hair!! Because it practically never dries...which is the occasion right now.
    2. My ugly face!!!!!! It literally takes tons of makeup to cover up the massive amount of redness on the side of my face. ;(
    3. Hmmm..what should I expect from this moose party? I don't know!! I'm excited scared! We get to dress up!! And guess Whatttt I just found my thigh high boots!!!!! I hadn't found them since I moved back in December!!!!! I'm thinking about wearing those...and I'm going to bet $2 that won't be "slutty" in comparison to what the rest of the girls will be wearing.

    If only people only saw what went down behind our veils..Ahahaha

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    4 days 13 hours ago

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    My face today ;(
    Thanks evil dog, al cabo que ni te queria. Jk I do actually, te voy a domar dog..que al cabo me gusta a good challenge.

    La vida del insurgente es una vida bellisima.

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    5 days 8 hours ago

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    Daniel sent me this picture of his dog bebe today and I just had to share it. Ahahaha this is one of the most hilarious things I've seen in a ehileeeee. I actually wanted to make a hijab for London too but my sister said I was a dumbass! Hahaha

    Ok sooo today at work when I was making the tea Alex walked into the store, got some drinks and went to say hi to me...y de abrazo. I was like Ohh Okk I can't even shake a guys hand but allright. So I'm all flustered and freakin out I'm like ok bye and go back, but I'm like OMFG the whole time and I thought I had went far back enough where I couldn't see him and then and started superrr freakin outttt. Then I composed myself and go back out to finish the tea, and I thought he was gone when before I know it I feel someone sneak up behind me and says next to my ear next time ...don't make it so obvious and smiles and walks away. And my face turned bright red!!!!!!!!!!! I was like 0_0 I never wanna see you ever ever again!!!! FML!!!! After I quit this place in a few weeks I probably won't! Because omg seriously! It's embarrassing that someone that I have absolutely no feelings for, dated over 4 years ago can still make me feel like that. Damnnn ittttt, why do I have to be easily embarrassed by everything!!! That video on my Facebook today was EQUALLY as embarrassing and I wasn't even the one talking!!! Hahaha why am I such a weirdo. FML

    Ok lastly, my coworker is PISSED THE FUCK OFFFFF that we had to pay out of own pocket for "missing" money and the managers didn't pay for shit!!! She's like that's illegal. And I was like yeah I know it is but I didnt want to make a big deal out of it because its embarrassing that I'm not willing to pay $4.48 but other people had to pay like $20. So I was like Damn people are gonna think I'm cheap so ill just pay it whatever. And she was like its not about the money its the principle of it, the fact that they don't have to pay shit and everyone else does. I was like yeah but I don't wanna be an evil bitch and see a lawyer and make a big deal out of it, because they dont have papers. and she was like pues dime, ellas se tocan el corazon contigo? Tu sabes como hablan de ti y las mentiras que inventan de ti asi que tu porque te vas a tocar el corazon con ellas? I was like: no pues si, pero quien soy yo para hacerles que pierdan el trabajo sabiendo bien que no tienen papeles. eso es venganza y eso yo me las tendria que averiguar con dios despues yo no quiero ese tipo de culpa sober mi conciencia. And she said: te entiendo,pero a esas viejas se les tienn que bajar los humos. Ellas quien se creen que te pueden tratar asi sabiendo bien que tu si tienes papeles y ellas no. Ademas no es venganza es defender los derechos de uno. Si ellas tmb hubieran pagado quiza seria otra cosa pero ni in cinco de sue bolsillos y a ellas que le pagan mas y no pueden coperar. I was like Damn it!!!! I'm doing no service to my major right now muy let me defend my rights and shit and urging others to do the same..pero when push comes to shove me estoy dejando. not after this talk though, first thing Tuesday morning since Monday is a holiday I'm going to schedule a consultation with a workers right attorney y haber que me dice. time to put theory into practice.

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    6 days 7 hours ago

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    You're so vain you probably think this song about you, don't you, don't you.

    Back from le 7th grade. I'm sort of pissed because I have to be at work in half an hour!!! I was supposed to go to bako today and buy a bouquet of florwers for Saturday. Now I can't, great..thanks a lot dead end job. Whatev, somehow I'm still unexplainably chipper. Yay life :)

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    6 days 17 hours ago

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