today was relaxing...
went to the beach, the water is sooo nice. downside to that............. tourist season which equals more cops giving tickets for dumb ass shit. thank god my ticket was only $35!
i had the best nap at the beach haha well 2 naps(laying on my back and on my tummy) gotta keep the tan even hah.
came home to some yummy crab dip :D
and now i gotta go take pics for the hubby haha.
i plan on doing nothing for the rest of the evening, it's time to stop stressing tonight.
I’m sick and tired of hiding my sadness with a smile. I’m tired of being strong. Why is it considered weak to break down and cry? I never know how to express my feelings because I’m always told to stay strong and that there’s no need to cry. LET ME FUCKING CRY GOD DAMNIT! I understand that I chose this lifestyle but it’s not fair. Every strong woman has their breakdown, why can’t I have mine. People ask me how I’m doing and I smile and say good. When really I feel empty inside. My other half has chosen a career that requires him to put his life on the line for others who couldnt give a shit and it kills me. How could I be good? I don’t want to be the girl that people think they can’t talk about certain things around because I’ll cry. Why can’t I cry?
7 LETTERS IN 2 WEEKS FROM MY HUSBAND :)
i finally got an address in the 6th one.
soooo now i get to write him back :)
i cannot wait till he comes home in AUGUST!
