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February 28th, 2012: I took this picture at like 5:50 in the morning and I really don't give a fuck.
I've been missing for a long time and I haven't journaled a few things I'd like to recall upon at a later date, but there's no time for that. Between boys, tumblr, and homework; I barely have enough time to breathe.
I honestly don't know if I'd have time to have a life because I don't see where I'd pencil it in.
I'm starting to honestly not give a fuck. If you want me, take me. If you hate me, don't talk to me.
I'm currently dirty talking with a 17 year old guy. No fucks given. Or about to be given.
Future me, don't be such a naive bitch. And start giving more fucks.

Xoxo<3.

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February 28th, 2012

Pr0sthetic snapped a picture

The body is a house of many windows: there we all sit, showing ourselves and crying on the passers-by to come and love us.
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February 12th, 2012: Today's booth is like the opposite of my last booth. That 'perfect' guy is a douche; Sam likes me but I don't exactly like him; LDRs are so last year, I need a guy that I can touch and feel; There is no #him anymore. I held onto him for way too long. He's still a great friend & an amazing guy though; I think I'm falling for a straight guy I came out to that lives in my neighborhood, but he's as straight as they come so I know I'm not getting anywhere with that; I self-diagnosed myself with BPD a couple years ago and the symptoms are getting stronger everyday. Even though I stopped cutting & self-injury all together in 2010, I feel the need to emotionally hurt myself to feel alive; I need to get out more. But I hate everyone so.. fuck.

Live.Laugh.Love.<3.

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February 12th, 2012

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I got arrested earlier. The charges: Not boothing often enough. I got let off on probation though, community service-- booth a minimum of twice a week.

February 7th, 2012: So much has happened since like 6 days ago when I last boothed & I only have like, 2 minutes to spare so I'll keep it short, sweet, and simple.
I've been meeting a lot of people online lately, some of them horny bastards but a majority nice friendly people, and I've met two guys of interest. One is named Sam and lives in California. He's like 16 (turning 17 this week) or something and he's chill. Not someone I'm sure I'd want to be in a LDR with though. The other is named Zack. He's 15 & lives in Maine. I really like him, like I really do. And I would totally jump at the chance to talk to him and get to know him and you know, gett att him(;
Before, LDR's really didn't interest me; but I'm young, wild, and free. I want to try as much as I can before they bury my body. Stay pretty, die young. But I know that these LDR's won't last long. I don't know how I can stand just being away from someone I love and not being able to hold them. But my weakness: I get attached too easily and quickly.

That's all I have for today. <3. Live.laugh.love.

[F.Y.I. This picture dates back to 1.3.2012. I look ugly today]

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February 7th, 2012

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It took me like 7 minutes to compose this shot, NO JOKE. Cute though, right? Right .

January 31st, 2012: I came out to my BFF of 3 years last night. I felt as if he should know, and before focusing on coming out to people that will come and go in my life; I should start focusing on coming out to people that will stay with me forever.
He was pretty accepting of it, and by that I mean we continued on with our conversation and he just asked a few questions about my likes/attractions. I love him so much, you have no idea. BROSFORLIFE<3.

On the other hand, today was a bland Tuesday. I looked ugly today, so that tomorrow when I look kick-ass; it stands out more.
I really need to pull my grades up and I know that I'm already trying; but I guess I'm not studying hard enough. Studying and test-taking have always been horrible things for me though. I'd rather a shit load of assignments that will get graded than sit there with a book open for an hour trying to absorb information.

Boy situation: We talked today. He wore red. I wore green. We looked like Christmas. I still think he may like me. He's cute. Shit's good.

I don't really have much more to say other than I can't believe January is over and I love all the blessings and good it's given to me. But I hope February gives me even more. Goodbye January, hello February.

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January 31st, 2012

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Older picture, but I was wearing an outfit similar to the one pictured ^^above^^ so it's all good.

January 30th, 2012: Today was just another Monday. A bittersweet harmony I like to call it. We'd be so unorganized without them but less stressed if they actually were eliminated. Today we registered for classes. The classes I signed up for are as followed: American Sign Language I, English II Honors, AP World History, Beginning Weight Training, Creative Writing I, AP Biology, Algebra II Honors, and Health Science I (Required Elective).
I'm starting a new diet consisting of: British TV Shows, Junk Food, Homework, Lust, and Vanity.
As for the boy situation, his period to sign up for classes was 3rd (one of the classes I have with him), so I didn't see him until 7th; which is the other class I have with him. We talked and ishh.
Nothing else to really talk about.

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http://alcohol-intoxication.tumblr.com

Also, I'm buried in Chemistry homework right now and I'm rushing off of this to go finish it & watch PLL. Deuces.

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January 30th, 2012

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My face is refusing to obey my requests to look pretty, so you can just look at my First Aid/CPR book.

January 29th, 2012: Just another day. Mein Freund kam zu meinem Haus, und wir versuchten für hausaufgaben. Versuch = gescheitert. I'm becoming more and more interested in ASL, and I'm currently learning how to sign Hold It Against Me by Britney Spears + becoming fully accustomed with the ASL alphabet. Die Prognose für den Rest meiner nacht: Hausaufgaben gemacht, Das Real Hausfrauen von Atlanta, Hausaufgaben, Schlafen.

Random song lyric-- I want your whiskey mouth all over my blonde south.

#TipOfTheDay: Never trust colored people, they'll break your heart.

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January 29th, 2012

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Not one of my best creations, but I really dgaf.

January 28th, 2012: Nothing happened today except I woke up closer to 12:30PM. Um, I actually really wanted to booth yesterday because so much happened. But I got home too late. Basically: Our school pep rally was CANCELLED so I got stuck in a 2-hour class period with the guy I liked and we bonded a lot. And shit. And yeah. This is really, yeah.

P.S. My bestfriend is now going out with this guy I dislike and she doesn't even know him. Basically, he liked her and asked her out and she said yes. But she's on the rebound from her 22 month relationship, which ended horribly on her part but amazing on her ex's part (I went on a school trip to Wisconsin with her ex and he's so omg), so she doesn't know what she's doing. This will last 2 weeks, I'm sure of it.

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January 29th, 2012

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Anybody want to tell me a way that I can let the guy I like know that I like him without saying "I really like you?".
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Attempt #1234567890987654321 at being attractive.
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January 25th, 2012: I could've sworn I boothed yesterday, but after my computer had already shut down I realized that I didn't. :c. AP Human Geography is pissing me off because my day is going perfectly fine until I go in there and fail every assignment I turn in. Ugh.
When I got home I started thinking and then I realized, if I don't tell him that I like him; he'll probably never know. Unless the stars align or something. Idk. I don't even know what I'm talking about. And I don't want to ramble. But that's what this journal is here for right? Rambling my every thought from throughout the day so that in the future I'll have something to look back on. Ugh. Basically: I like a boy. I feel like I'm unintelligent. I'm torn between taking Spanish III and ASL I next year. I don't know whether I want to be a Psychologist or a Sign Language Interpreter later in life. I have a feeling I won't get into college because my foreign language classes are all screwed up from me taking French I online this year. I want my hair cut because I just want to look amazing for him. I'm scared to take Weight Training next year. My grades are horrible. All I can think/care about is him, him, him. I want to tell him I like him. I want to come out but I'm not even sure about my sexuality anymore. I'm just tired.

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January 25th, 2012

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This is what I look like before I'm about to go to bed, ew.

January 23rd, 2012: Nothing monumental happened today. Except a bit of monumental thinking. I started thinking about the guy I like and how I would react if things actually did work out in my favor for once, being that he liked me as much as I liked him and he asked me out. But then the thought hit me, is this really what I want? I've seen him happy and mad, smiling and frowning. And I don't really know how to explain it, but I don't know how I could handle having to be fully in charge of making him feel amazing. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I still like him nevertheless. And I've really been thinking about hinting this towards him tomorrow. I really don't know what to do and I think I should stop using the word 'really' so much in this.
I'm typing this UUUUBBEEERRR fast because I'm trying to go to bed & catch up on my sleep.

Live, Laugh, and (most importantly) Love<3. http://takentoinfinity.tumblr.com

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January 23rd, 2012

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January 22nd, 2012: This picture is old, it dates all the way back to 1.3.2012. I would booth a more recent picture but all the recent pictures of me look gross & would be uncooth of me to share on the internet.
I wish I would have boothed earlier on in the week because so much progress has been made in everything and I feel like I'm starting to fall behind on these booths and I'm going to miss minor details in my journals which may turn out to be major emotions or feelings that at a later date I would want to remember.
On January 19th, 2012 I came out to a friend that I've known for about 4.5 months now. He's one of the only 3 people that I know in real life that I've come out to. Not only did I share my true sexuality with him, I told him who I was crushing on. I knew prior to this that my crush & him were good friends last year. I don't feel a major lift off my chest but it's nice knowing that someone knows even a fragment of the shit going through your head on a normal daily basis.
On January 20th, 2012 the guy that I like fountained a drink out of my Vitamin Water bottle (showing a sign of trust), allowed me to go with him to his locker since I had Pet Rescue Club (showing that I don't annoy him), and he just didn't piss me off. Which was a good thing.

The incident that happened on Monday isn't really a big deal anymore and I've moved on from it. I've learned from my mistakes and I feel like a semi-new person now. It's only been 6 days so I'm not ready to share what happened, but I'm not as secure with the information as I was.

I'm writing this half asleep laying on my forearm so forgive my grammar.

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January 22nd, 2012