I got invited to a gathering at the woods, basically a drink fest.
I chose to not drink at all, as i am not a drinker.
My friends all drank and as the night led on a number a things occurred.
1st- my bestfriend got so drunk that he became paraplegic, i was scared as hell and didnt know what to do, so i called the ambulance and they took him away. He is now in hospital.
2nd- another one of my friends started coughing up blood, so again i caled the ambulance. She is in hospital.
3rd- The police showed up, as i was the only sober one, they didnit bother with me. 3 of my friends were taken in for the night.
4th- Everything built up and i broke down in an anxiety attack, i got so nervous and felt responsible for my friends.
I have come to the conclusion, i am a horrible friend, and alcohol is the most dangerous weapon.
Today i came to the realization that having friends is overrated.
For the past few weeks i have been sad and lonely, ive wondered if moving would do me good, to just get up and leave and find a new life with new people around me.
But to be honest, that's not the answer, so today i got up and enjoyed myself, alone.
I'm now teaching myself to surf, so whenever i feel down i can get up and go out and surf or sail or do whatever i want. Whenever i'm out at sea i feel free and amazing.