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Of all things ..
I'm treating DB as my Daily Diary now ... i know its suppose to be something personal .. but id rather write it here .. this site seems to draw me in

To lack dreams is a strange thing to me
They say a person dreams only when his psyche is crying out wanting something to be heard or uttered
To dream describes a person in need of a change
To dream represents your inner most fear pressed so far into you that it touches your very soul

The past few weeks my dreams have escaped me ..

Am I content ?

I sure hope not .. My potential would have died out then .. and i have so much left to do

Except last night........
Of all things .. a nightmare
A great fear has been pushed on me yet again ..

My girl friend leaves me .. and of all days on our wedding .. i know she will probably crucify me when she reads this .. most likely beat me with an inch of my life first .. but hey it'll be fun as long as i get to see her smile when I crack a joke mid-beating =P

I've always been a fighter .. they'd tell me this is not possible, and the problem would be looked at from different angles, a goal of finding a glimmer of hope, the tiny 1% of success .. I'd hold onto that small hope and drag it out so far that it is plain to see for all

My girl friend is proof of that, said she had walls protecting her heart, safety from pain and suffering.
Yet my eyes saw it .. there was hope

Since I started writing this my feelings are changing .. I feel easier now .. which would explain the differences in moods

The hope I saw was more than enough for me to bust through every wall encasing her heart
People deserve to be happy, and of all people she deserves it the most

And to dream that she leaves me .. and for some low life who treats her unjustly .. makes me sick to my stomach

To think that even happy go-lucky, careless, blindly optimistic, cocky people can't hide everything without it someday bursting in our face in some form or another

Makes me laugh actually how this thing called a psyche works
Could this have been my body helping me ? Providing me with a new challenge ? Something I must over come to be better ?
I sure hope so ...

I must improve, push foreword, i must fight

Thanks for your time if you read this .. I know it probably didn't make much sense .. but it does to me

May the scales of life tip in your favor brothers and sisters
Peace be upon you