That day I wanted to tell him what I thought it was going to make him happy, but when he told me what he thought I just felt so bad. It's sad because I tried to find a way to get to see him and when I finally got it, it was over. It seems it was a bad dream, but never anything was real. I think I was a game or a distraction for him. I fell in love, a mistake.. I know. Now the trip is canceled :(