I made a mask for VlogCandy. It's worn by an elder in Shadow of the Colossus and i'm really happy with how it turned out! It'd be sweet if some of you guys made masks and posted them to VC. I WANNA SEE EM.
sitting in front of a mirror at five years old
with oversize pink framed glasses,
i delicately applied red lipstick on my lips and cheeks
trying to be as pretty as julia roberts was in "pretty woman"
i thought i looked beautiful,
and my mom told me it was true,
and when i was five years old,
that's all that mattered.
as i got a little older,
there were things people said that i would keep with me, preventing me from looking a certain way.
when i was 7 years old, kanita withrow, a girl who rode my bus,
told me she thought i was a boy when i had my hair tied back
so, i cut the hair i was practically sitting on, off in a bob right below my ears
and didn't grow it out again until i was in the 7th grade,
when i got contacts.
with my new found esteem with my new glasses-less look,
i again, cut my hair short, in the 8th grade.
my uncle stacy stephens called me a "fucking dyke"
he didn't tease me for long after, because he drown in a river a few weeks after that.
three girls cornered me in school, shortly after his funeral
and asked me why i didn't wear make up.
"we all wear makeup" they said.
"see how we look?"
and i wanted to be pretty
so i bought a tube of brown lipstick
and started to wear it every day
but when they told me i looked like a clown,
i swore off lipstick and threw my brown tube away.
it feels silly to me now, to be bothered by what a 7 year old says about my hair
and to take the make up advice of a group of mean 13 year olds,
or to be bothered by what small minded men have to say
so now i have red lipstick on
and my hair up in braids
and i think i look beautiful,
and josh told me it's true,
and at 23 years old,
that's all that matters.
