Lydsties

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    This life sucks. But what can you do?
    (−_−＃)

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    July 16th, 2011

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    What do you think? :3

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    July 15th, 2011

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    So, something had been heavily on my mind all weekend. I felt that I couldn't talk to anyone about it. I couldn't sleep well or really even talk to people. I was planing on doing something I thought drastic and that might of left me with one less friend. I was constantly praying about it.

    Then, today, out of the blue I get I text. I feel like the thing that was weighing me down has been left off my shoulders. I'm so happy I can't put it into words! I haven't been this happy in a long time. I hope this last...

    Well, I need to go get my school done so I can do something awesome Thursday night. And yes mom, in a blink of an eye, I'd give up going to look at cars for my birthday to go hang out with a VERY special friend! ^^ <3

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    July 11th, 2011

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    I love PostSecret so much. So many of them could have been sent in by me.
    Just like this one...

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    July 2nd, 2011

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    Part of me won't go away
    Everyday reminded how much I hate it
    Weighted against the consequences
    Can't live without it, so it's senseless
    Wanna cut it out of my soul
    And just live with a gaping hole
    Take control of my life and wash out all the burnt taste
    I made the problems in the first place
    Hang my head low 'cause it's part of me
    You hardly see it right next to the heart of me
    Heard of me, the routine scar
    New cuts cover where the old ones are
    And now I'm sick of this
    I can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity
    I rather not even be then the man
    That's staring in the mirror through me

    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me

    I feel it everyday, I feel I made my way
    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me

    Freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it
    Once it's been dealt with you feel like
    You've been touched by something angelic
    And then melted down into a pool of peace
    Cease to be the animal you used to be
    Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
    And feel the calm when the problem's all gone
    And then you start to see another piece
    Of yourself that you can't let be
    Memories of the last fight to free yourself
    Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
    And now you know that you can choose
    To lose the part in your heart where your insides bruise
    You can live if you're willing to
    Put a stop to just what's killing you

    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me
    Cut myself free willingly, stop just what's killing me

    I feel it everyday, I feel I made my way
    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me

    Alive in me, inside of me
    A part of me screams away silently
    Alive in me, inside of me
    A part of me screams away silently
    This part of me won't go away
    Part of me won't go away
    Everywhere I look around I see how everyone ought to be
    Every time I see myself I see there's always something wrong with me
    Everywhere I look around I see how everyone ought to be
    Every time I see myself I see there's always something wrong with me

    I feel it everyday, I feel I made my way
    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me

    I feel it everyday, I feel I made my way
    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me

    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me
    I feel it swell up inside
    Swell up inside, swallowing me

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    June 29th, 2011

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    Oi. I worked from 8am to 8:45pm today with only two brakes. (one 1 hour and the other 1 1/2 hours)

    I'm so sleepy right now. @.@ lol

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    June 16th, 2011

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    Home from work. Sleepy... Zzzz... t.t

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    June 9th, 2011

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    Off work finally... It sucks. >.<
    Lucas BIT me! o.o And I worked for 8hrs. I'm part time lady! -.-Gosh...
    I ha-O.o *really dislike my job... Heehee

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    June 8th, 2011

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    I want to cry right now... But I haven't cried in over two years and for some reason I can't now either. I want to give up on everything; photography, school, any social life I may have had, every thing... I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess it's just been a really bad couple of weeks. I think I lost my job too. >.< yay... I officially SUCK at life.
    Fuck it.

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    June 5th, 2011

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    Okay, I've lost 4lbs so far. :3

    But it's still 28lbs in 25 days. /: yay...

    I need to go back to work. I lost more when I was working. :x

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    May 26th, 2011