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Kazzart

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May 29th, 2010

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Just got back from a live cuban band/club event. Actually I kinda left the club early after the band finished, coz I just didn't feel like dancing. Not sure if it was the floor (really sticky so was hard work to dance & turn lots as u tend to do in salsa), or the fact that I'd been out dancing the night before and gotten home at 5am this morning, or maybe just that I felt kinda demoralised after watching a 4 girl reggaeton group dance performance feat one of the girls that I was trying to get to form my own reggaeton girls group. (Maybe she even got the idea from me and formed her own group.) Meh. What gets to me is that I know I can dance reggaeton better than 3 of the 4 girls who were in that group but I just don't have the time/energy (because of my demanding job) to make it happen, even though it was one of my new years resolutions this year. *sigh* Sorry, this DB has kinda turned into a depressive blog entry coz I'm feeling kinda down atm... Dunno what else to say.. but.. meh.. kinda sucks when u try to follow ur dreams and then begin to realise maybe they were just that. Dreams.

rhythm7a
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Aw, maybe you're just tired... don't give up if you really want to do it. Nothing good comes easy. You're just paying some dues now.
When I first started playing I played all kinds of crappy jobs with crappy bands because I knew the more I played the better I'd get and then the good musicians would want me to play with them. It happened eventually.

May 29th, 2010
Kazzart
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The thing is, musicians are kinda like wine, they get better with age (esp jazz musicians!), whereas dancers are the opposite, with a very youthful expiry date. And I'm just kinda aware of the fact that my body will soon physically not be able to keep up. Even my knees are starting to give me problems with moves I had no problems with a few years back. So its like, I never even got there and I'm already past "retirement age" so to speak.

May 29th, 2010
rhythm7a
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Well you have a point there. Although you don't see too many 50+yr old rock and roll drummers. Charlie Watts is an exception. I don't know how he does it actually.
I guess I think you should still do it if you have the desire. It was always going to be a difficult thing to manage with the job that you have.

May 29th, 2010
AericWinter
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Well, being tired can pull you down.

You shouldn't give up on your dreams.

But my impression is that you try to do too many things at once.
You have a job that keeps you working long hours.
You've moved and are still furnishing your new home.
You're a fan of Italy, like to visit the country and learn the language.
You're a musician and would like spend more time playing music.
You're involved in some many different dance things (hip hop, salsa, reggaeton, etc.) that I can't even keep track.
You have a plethora of internet activities going. Even if you're not too active on any of them, it adds up.
Every now and then you may even want to spend some quality time with boyfriend and cat.

And it seems to me you're not a person who can merely enjoy doing these things. You want to excel at all of them.
That's enough to keep three people busy around the clock, Kazzie. But there's only one of you. Something's gotta give.

May 30th, 2010
Kazzart
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Just found a msg I had sent to this girl in early February this year. I find it too much of a coincidence that I sent this to her and lo and behold 3-4 months later, I see it executed in front of me.

Snippet:
"I'm trying to start a girls reggeaton performance group - maybe 3 or 4 girls - and I was wondering if you would be interested? Your dance experience and knowledge of choreography would be really beneficial as we will be creating our own choreography and ideas and finding club events to perform in."

*sigh* That'll learn me to share my ideas.

May 30th, 2010
Kazzart
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@Aericwinter Lol. Yeh you pretty much nailed my activites.. and raised some very valid and true points. I know I can sometimes have high expectations of myself and what I want to excel at. Perhaps trying to have my cake and eat it too is a bit of a weakness of mine. But the dance and music things to give way in preference for another when one takes precedence (eg hiphop gives when I do lots of salsa, or salsa gave when I started Lambada etc, or music in general gives when dance takes over).

Anyway, I dunno, I didn't really think it would be so hard to get a small dance act together for some occasional performances. I mean I did it with the jazz trio?

But its not just about not achieving what I want to achieve that is currently getting to me, its the feeling that this girl stole my idea, and now its been done in the relatively small london cuban salsa scene, I'll just look like I'm copying. :(

May 30th, 2010
CylonDuck
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You like your job as a web designer (I think that is your job), but part of you wants to dance. You see that some people on stage are not as good as you and you wonder what if? You do have very high expectations of yourself. But perhaps dance can still be a big part of your life as something you enjoy? If you keep (as you seem to) yourself in shape I bet your body will move like you want it to for many years to come (although you may pay a bit of a price the next day!). I understand if you are upset that someone stole your idea, but it is not as if only one person can start a dance group. It really should not stop you (I would not think so anyway).

June 14th, 2010
Kazzart
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Thanks @CylonDuck. Actually that recent tweet yesterday about the gf was not about this particular situation. Upon reading back I can see how it looks the same, being a relatively cryptic tweet, but its about a diff and more recent situation. I have pretty much moved on from this DB post here. :)

June 15th, 2010
CylonDuck
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Actually my comment was refering to something you said on a May 30th comment to this picture as follows:
"But its not just about not achieving what I want to achieve that is currently getting to me, its the feeling that this girl stole my idea, and now its been done in the relatively small london cuban salsa scene, I'll just look like I'm copying. :("
Either way I am glad you have moved on!

June 15th, 2010