If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me,
And just forget the world?
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It's crazy how everyone's changing this summer.
Summer 2010, you were the most interesting summer ever, you made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me go crazy, you made me pissed off. You will be missed.
Moving out today. I'm excited yet nervous.
Moving out at 16. Wow.
Hey dailybooth.
Been up sincee, 3:30pm yesterday.
It's now 8:37am
I don't plan on sleeping for awhile, cause I need to PACK the rest of my stuff.
Moving tonight :D <3 Or tomorrow. :D
The orange under my nose and around my mouth is when I coloured a orange moustache on my face.. with an orange sharpie.
Yeah, I'm feeling good tonight.
Time to do me, everything's alright.
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Sometimes I wish you'd come back and say you still loved me.
I don't want to sound like an idiot but I know you still like me.
Honestly I wish you'd get over me, cause I feel guilty for finally starting to move on.
You didn't have to say you were over me if you weren't.
Maybe you just took the 3 long minutes to think it over, and see if we'd last.
Then you finally looked at me, and I noticed your eyes weren't normal, the facial expression you made, and your voice when you said it.
"Yeah, yeah I'm over you."
It kills me that you actually said it, when you weren't.
I still love you and probably always will have a part of me that does forever, considering you're my first boyfriend.
I'm sorry for us fighting, and me pissing you off all the time.
I'm sorry I made you say it was over the first time, I'm sorry I tried to work things out before you said it the second time.
You should've known that this was my first relationship, and you've would've had to help me through it.
I'm sorry for crying when I found out what you did 5 days after you dumped me, I was still in love and didn't expect you to do that.
I'm sorry for bitching at you when I found out the truth, like you said 'I'm 18 I can do whatever I want.' Yeah you were right. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I said something hurtful, but you said hurtful things right back.
I'm sorry that I was gushing to you about another boy, it's probably why you don't talk to me now.
I'm sorry that I took things overboard, now it's ruined us.
I'm sorry that I thought we were going to last a long time, obviously we didn't.
After you realized I was starting to like someone else, you started acting like a dick.
I hope you realize I'm not coming back, I'm not going to run after you, begging you to be my friend again.
You had your chance, and you chose to go after people, and not talk to me.
I wanted to put this behind us, but it made me realize we can't be friends with our exes that still like us.
Sometimes I wish that I made an impact on you, that I was different than the others.
I wish I didn't fuck things up. We might've still been together.
Sorry if I seem like a complete idiot for thinking of these things.
Most of all, I'm sorry for all of the things I've done.
I'm tired of the fucking family drama, I hate when family turns against another family member. Pretty soon my whole family will hate me. I'm tired of being in the center of all the fucking drama.
Apparently telling the truth about someone is "talking shit"
And getting a boost in self confidence, self esteem, and living my life makes me think I'm the shit? Wtf like really.
I'm finally getting out.
Tomorrow, well basically today, I head out to my new town at 7:30am.
For my summer school exam and for my "weekend" with my best friend.
But I'm moving in now.
I'm so excited.
And nervous.
