okay i know i havent boothed in months, but i felt i needed too, because look what i got done, my nose pierced!!!!!! and my best friend was there to hold my hand = ) i love it, what do you think?
with summer coming, every girl wants a tan, and of course we are all gonna be in the sun trying to get a tan, but if you want a safe alternative, this flash bronzer from lancome for legs is the best. i have to put safe sun practices out there, my dad died from melanoma, a very deadly skin cancer that is on the rise with young people as young as 18 getting melanoma. at least put on spf 10 if you can. because even though the tan is great now, it wont be great when you have skin cancer and wrinkles.
I have some things on my mind that I need to get off my chest.
Have you ever been friends with a group of people who you would call really good friends, people you would call your best friends. And in the back of your mind, you feel like they are only "friends" with you to laugh at you and make fun of you and make you feel bad? Even though you would walk down to mels diner down the street from school after school. People you can text almost all day every day. But out of nowhere one of them starts saying things that just arent something you would say to a friend. Then all the sudden things you told this girl who you confided in and didnt think you needed to tell her not to tell people, somehow magically gets around to someone else, and your words are now turned around into something that you never said. And you will be at this dance with these people and they tell you to go inside, they had to go grab their backpacks, then you wait inside for over an hour and they never show up, you finally go out and look for them, and they are no where to be found, they won't answer your calls or texts, they basically ditched you and left you to look like an idiot. Then you like this guy and you confide in this girl and you tell her everything, how you feel and talk about things about this guy through instant message, and everything you told her gets sent to the guy so he can see everything you told her. Thats not everything this group of people put me through, there are so many more things. It got so bad, you switched from public school to home school because you had been hurt so bad, I was tired of coming home crying every night. It got to the point it was better to have no friends, then to have any friends. This whole ordeal I went through was over 2 years ago and I am still very distraught over it. I still feel very betrayed and hurt. Is what im feeling validated, or am I just overreacting?? After all the crap I went through I was sent into a very bad depression, it got bad, and I eventually told my mom and was put on anti-depressents. That really helped me, but I still feel hurt, but Its no where near what I was feeling before. I went through some things during my depression that I cant even talk about. Those 6-9 months were some of my darkest moments of my entire life, and I hated every single minute of it, because thats not who I am, Im a happy peppy perky person, I belong in Jamba juice or starbucks because im always so chipper. I feel like I am still not over what I went through, my heart still hurts a bit, and I am scared to open up to people to make friends because I am worried everyone is like that. I think its a healing process that I need to deal with, and I feel that me telling anyone whos reading this helps me deal with it. So if you are still reading this, thank you. I feel a little better just getting it off my chest.
look at my modeling kitty, I love that cat more than anything, I brought him home on my 16th birthday without my moms permission, actually she had told me no earlier, but I did it anyways. = ) now she loves him too because he catches the moles that ruin her garden, haha.
I am still so sick, I got it from my niece and nephew who had this new strain of the swine flu, so yeah I have the damn swine flu!! my entire family is sick, its pretty bad.
This is about as natural as I get, just got out of the shower, haven't even brushed my hair yet, and I have absolutely no make-up on whatsoever!
This lotion from bath and body works smells AMAZING!!!!!!! I am going crazy over this twilight woods. If you have not checked it out, I suggest you do!
Im getting a headache and im incredibly tired, why are mondays always so tiring. Im going to watch csi miami, then go to sleepy!! Goodnight or good morning, depending on where you live. = )
So I went to the dentist yesterday, and I have no cavities!!! I might have to get invisalign because when my wisdom teeth came in, they crowded my front teeth on the bottom. But even with the promotion they are having, its still going to be $3950!!! Which is a lot of money, and my mom would have to pay for it out of pocket, but there are a lot of benefits to the one retainer like thing, it straightens your teeth, then you can also use them as teeth whitening trays, and I grind my teeth at night, so its wearing down my enamel, so the invisalign would help with that as well. So I dont know what to do....
That would be my tired face, 6 hours of sleep last night, then having to get up early and do easter stuff wore me out, so its 7:30 pm and im going to bed. I hope everyone had a happy easter!!
