gross picture. i broke up with tyler yesterday. i don't know what happened, i think we may have taken things to fast. i just, lost a ton of feelings for him and i feel like he may have liked me more than him. i feel bad. idk :/ i'm either really confused, or its how i really feel. i told him i wanted to take a break. idk. he didn't take it to well..
my face looks so...big. yeah. i'm so impatient. i'm seeing my boyfriend soon. my bus comes at 11:22 and his train comes at 11:45 and rawrrr. i miss him D; i wanna go see him. right now. :/ anyways, hes meeting my cousin, sarina, who is also my best friend today. shes coming with my friend erin, so erin gets to meet him to. tylers coming to my town on monday. i can't wait. :D i just feel bad that he has to spend more money to see me than i do to see him :/ does that make sense? :p
woke up like, an hour ago. sorry i haven't been posting in the past week or so. i met this guy, his name is tyler. i like him a lot and we've been skyping every night to about 5 in the morning. and i know he likes me to. we have a date on wednesday but my mom might not let me go to boston. theres no way i can tell her i have a date cause she won't believe its a girl, and she might not let me go. :p clearly i'm not the straightest guy, but whatever. i told her i'm going bowling with my friend whos moving to canada for two years. its not really a lie, except the two years thing. but she is moving to canada after highschool x; anyways, what else can i tell my mom i'm doing? i'm gunna tell her i took the bus to the mall and i have to wait for her mom to pick us up. idk, anyone else got something? ><
so tired. you see that rainbow bracelet i have? my mom verbally beat me because i have it. she doesn't know i'm gay yet but i know for a fact that she has an idea of it. and my dad has an idea of it as well. he found out i was sleeping over one of my guy friends house, and he flipped out, and then i told him i was sleeping over this girls house and he didn't mind. i'm telling my dad next week when i'm drunk. i can't do it sober, because if he ever said something bad to me, i wouldn't be able to live. and being drunk, i wouldn't even notice.
i've become so despirate. i signed up for a teen dating site, thinking it'll actually work. i haven't got any adds or messages. i'm starting to think no one is interested in me at all. :/
dafuhk? sorry, i've been gone. i've been out everyday this week, except today. today i went to the mall with my mom and bought three pairs of jeans at hot topic. last night, i smoked weed for the second time. i felt sick, everytime i smoke i have a different reaction. i still wanna try it again, to be honest. but i think i like drinking more than smoking marijuana. i may be alone on that one. i like someone, and i hardly know them and i'm sure i don't phase them at all. we've never really even had a conversation. i may either just like him for his looks, or just the though of him being my boyfriend. either way, i hate being single. and i don't want to wait. i've become so impatient.
lmfao this angle is so...blah. anywayss just got home from sarinas. last night was fun, minus the puke and stuff. i made a cake yesterday. for elliott smiths birthday. it was AMAZING. tasting sweet;D
i'm always doing this same pose in EVERY picture. i have a new youtube video up, the quality sucks. i don't know why and its bothering me -.- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iug1E9Elr4Q please comment it though. i'm scared it wont be getting many :/
oh, the boys a slag. the best i've ever had.
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i love my new hair. i feel like it makes me look older. i dont know how to put it into words. it was time for something new, and i'm glad i did this. what do you guys think? i love it!:D
