Yes, I know we're done. This is becoming clearer to me now everyday that I'm living my life without you. But I just want to let you know that you can't play me like that and say you love me and then just leave me lying there on floor. My heart pouring out its emotions for you. Its wrong to just leave me there alone. It just kills me to know that you actually lied to my face by saying I love you. But somehow, I forgive you. I hate that I love you. I can't stand how much I need you. But you're gone. And I still can't let you go. Those beautiful sweet words you spoke to me whenever we were alone...was that all for nothing? All those late nights staying up and laughing at our silly jokes. Watching movies together and making fun of the horror films. The first movie we watched together just happens to be my favorite one and now everytime I watch it it always reminds me of you. That night you held me close was just so memorable. I know I'm not perfect but I tried to be for you. I don't have a perfect body. I don't have a perfect personality. I don't have a perfect singing voice. And I don't have that perfect smile. I just can't stand it anymore. I'm trying so fucking hard to let you go but I can't.
^^This is how I feel today :/ ^^
