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    So I fucked about on a bit of farmland today.
    Took some photos to help a mate of mine starting a t-shirt company called http://www.FreezeBomb.com/
    I'll let you know more about that another time when it's finished.

    Ended up taking 482 photos. Granted my mate had a very expensive camera and it just takes a dozen at a time, but still... a fuckton.

    Brought some props too which I'll show below. It's an apocalyptic punk setting. I think I went more ridiculously obvious forest ninja.
    Aw... now I have nail varnish on my fingers. What a world...
    I may not understand how you all think yet, but I will, eventually.

    Wanna dress up in an punk rock outfit for FreezeBomb?
    If it's chosen, you'll get a tshirt :D Seriously.

    -Just need to have a plain black tshirt and be facing the camera doing whatever.
    -Think apocalyptic punk as I said already, so if need be go in front a background easy to photoshop.
    -Be creative and amusing, just keep the shirt as clear as possible.
    -Needs to be well lit photos.
    -They need to be high quality. Post them here as comments and if it's picked I'll ask for a high-res one to be sent via email. :)
    -And have fun ^_^

    "There are other measures of self-respect for a man, than the number of clean shirts he puts on every day." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

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    1 day 4 hours ago

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    A couple of hours and I'd taken apart my old bed, the failed cupboard-thing my dad left above the stairs (pictured), cut up a stand for my mum and signed onto Job Seekers once more.

    Suffice to say I feel like both hot and cold death and my brain is on fire.
    Wondering if maybe I should eat or something. Bah.

    The dark circles under my eyes are getting deeper and I still haven't visited the GP...

    On a plus note, I might soon be the UK side to a t-shirt printing business a mate of mine is running soon so... Woo :D

    Hell, I've been a 'model' in one of his ads already, which I'll post below.

    Any spontaneous completing of tasks lately?
    I'm getting worse at these questions... Very repetitive. :/

    “Long is the road from conception to completion.” ~Moliere

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    4 days 4 hours ago

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    En garde!

    Ok, not quite a rapier but a machete.
    I just finished watching The Count of Monte Cristo. The 1934 version of course, not the 2003 one.
    I was surprised how good it was. Granted, some ye olde movie dramatics and a somewhat outdated soundtrack, some rather terrible cuts and occasional odd noises, but none the less very good in terms of story.

    For those of you that haven't seen it- Edmund Dante is imprisoned unfairly and without trial by 3 scheming 'friends' and left to plot his escape and seek justice. He returns as The Count of Monte Cristo and deals with each one in turn with very well laid plans and the return of the love of his life, who had thought him dead.

    Incredibly applicable to V for Vendetta and I'm glad that I've watched it.
    I particularly loved the part where his new-found fellow inmate shows him about all the things he's learned and inscribed upon the walls. Detailing modern (at the time) history, religion and science.
    I do agree with Alan Moore's thoughts that he was unkind to Mercedes, his love. He repeatedly snubbed her and gave the impression he no longer loved her, which I find cruel.

    I'd not watched this till now since I get the feeling that thanks to growing up with a fuckton of spam from repeated users I never gave a shit about etc. etc. I could never really take anyone's recommendations seriously. Nor stomach trying anything particularly outdated since they either lacked the grade of plot or film quality I wanted.
    But this one is pretty damn good.

    It makes me and Alan Moore both sad and angry that Hollywood want to make a Watchmen prequel. We really need to stop watching this drivel and start making better movies.

    Tell me your favourite movies and why.

    "Oh what a miserable creature you are. You easy green with greed, your heart filled with revenge. In such a condition you're not fit to have one so, patience. What a long road you have to travel. Be thankful your digging tools are but bits of crockery and iron. It will take time, pray for it to be a long time, so that when you emerge into the light, it will not be as a revengeful horseman of the Apocalypse, but as an avenging angel doing the work of God." ~Abbe Faria - The Count of Monte Cristo (1934)

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    5 days 14 hours ago

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    I've been trying to make things.
    It's been difficult given that I'm Frankenstein-ing it all...

    I think I'll reorganise the loft quickly before the day starts again.

    Do you ever jury rigged anything?
    How often do you reorganise rooms around you?

    “Did you ever stop to think, and forget to start again?” ~A. A. Milne

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    1 week 1 day ago

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    @Tombo visited yesterday which made me feel oodles better. Was even nice enough to buy me some sundries.Tis nice when company helps...
    My emotions are... mildly unstable still.
    I'd really enjoy a certain herb to keep it more level, but shit happens when you have no money.

    Just trying to keep myself busy. Sleep and food are probably my friends, but only in the "our parents make us hang out" sense.

    I must do things quick or I lose interest or get distracted like I have every day since I've been back. I think I need something to help focus, yet speed nor adderall have actually DONE anything to date. Fucking worthless. So tired of never knowing if I'm unstable or normal.
    Keep getting urges to see a psychiatrist, but I never trust the fuckers. Trust no one. S'probably why I should go. I fear their potential incompetence...

    You ever had any experience with them?

    "A Freudian slip is when you say one thing but mean your mother." ~Author Unknown
    "The aim of psychoanalysis is to relieve people of their neurotic unhappiness so that they can be normally unhappy." ~Sigmund Freud, attributed

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    1 week 3 days ago

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    No, Ben, why of course you don't have any feelings. You're just a man, so the only thing on your mind is sex. Sex sex sex.
    Never mind that that is the symptom of something far worse, no, you just need to be more social. Quit being such a loner. Sitting in the dark in the early morning, by yourself.

    What's that? You're still lonely? What're you bitching about? You've talked to maybe half a dozen people online last night, how can you be lonely. If you can't get people to come over, you're clearly not trying hard enough and they can see just how much of a weirdo you are.

    And to think, you had such high hopes when this year began. Who saw this all coming around again like an ouroboros? You did. Well done, because that hasn't done shit to change anything, has it?

    Who cares if you're so tired you can barely see straight. Maybe you don't deserve to see. Beetles know this. Beetles are good doctors.

    Quit drifting in and out of conscientiousness you've got a booth to fini

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    1 week 5 days ago

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    So, I got bored and am wearing some eyeliner. Also some nail polish thanks to @MarieCat. I think I look quite pretty tbh.

    I'm feeling really quite manic today. I'm trying my best to keep my brain from shutting down. Fill myself full of sugar and simply be witty. It's difficult. My head hurts.

    I'm also trying to be social. Emphasis on trying, since everyone seems to be busy...

    It's nice to indulge my energetic extroverted side though. I don't get to do it enough without people complaining.
    Listening to loud Dethklok helps too.
    Was also planning on doing a really nice edit of how I'm feeling, but now I'm too lazy and quite frankly I'm really starting to loath my lack of abilities.

    Oh how I miss the days I had the money and the inclination to just go down the pub and while away my time drinking.

    Please, followers of mine, give me something to occupy my mind with.
    Be it links or debating or anything.
    Just distract me from quite how I'm feeling. Wax poetic with me.

    "Boredom is an emptiness filled with insistence." ~Leo Stein

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    1 week 6 days ago

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    Well lookie where I am.
    I'm now moved into my loft, instead of the cramped-as-fuck room I was in before.
    The huge mess of light behind me is a striplight which is nice when I wanna see.

    Now I have oodles of (time) room. I've got a lovely desktop thing my dad originally built/used when he was here.

    ... Does this mean I've become my father a bit more? *Shrug*

    Oh, and this chair is new too. It's very comfy.
    Suffice to say I'm happy. Sweaty as fuck due to lifting it all up here, but happy. :)

    What aspects of your parents have you noticed in yourself?

    "Before I got married I had six theories about bringing up children; now I have six children, and no theories." ~John Wilmot

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    January 29th, 2012

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    Actually, the previous booth was pretty wank, and since I missed a day or 20 while away, double-booth time. :D

    My emotions and logical understandings of things are built very precariously on a framework of forgotten assumptions and duct-tape.

    I'm curious quite how similar everyone else is, so I'm just going to describe how I do things.

    I change a lot. In big and small ways. When I see an avenue for change, I will see if I can logic my way through it, and understand the thoughts of someone who would think that way. If I can empathise with what would make sense, at least from a personal perspective.
    I mean, no racist thinks "I'm a bigoted idiot who follows false data to prove what I want." They think "ah, all the other data was shit, and this makes more sense" and then doesn't actually investigate further becaue they've found the 'proof' they need. Same goes for Creationists. Yes, they're the same. They choose to believe their own version of reality, no matter what is actually true.
    My point is that my mind is made up of... everything. Bigotry, feminism, murderous rage and ultimate altruism. I'll often have to logic my way through things to remember what conclusions I had last time and if I was even 'right'.

    The main reason I do what I do, or don't do, is simply how it makes me feel. Most things are pretty blasé for me: sex; drawing; working; drinking; sleeping. There was a time I was pretty ruled by emotion. Now it's mostly empty, though not for lack of trying, but that most times I do get show excitement (whether I am or not) people look at me weirdly and I feel stupid, either because I did something semi-stupid or I just look like a crazy person (which I'm then told).

    It's not that my actual friends really judge me for anything, we all have our weirdness, but that they never follow me. None of them really suggest anything, help me, or even know what I'm on about most of the time. I'm like a Star Trek nerd... in a group of Star Wars nerds at best.

    Plus I'm forever torn between squashing my emotion and bringing it out. If I remove emotion, I have more options to choose from logically, but at the same time I'm empty and only guided by vague morals. Passionless, following baser desires. Or if I use them, they bounce around wildly, and usually end with me being as depressed as ever, followed by a slew of memories I can never get rid of that the rest of my mind tortures me with when least welcome. Then the cycle starts anew and I ignore my emotions to be not-so-depressing (because let's face it, it's boring) and find something that does make me happy/entertained. Happiness, onwards!

    I'm there'll be a lot of relating going on so... I dunno. Tell me whatever comes to mind.

    "I wondered why somebody didn't do something. Then I realized, I am somebody." ~Author Unknown

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    January 28th, 2012

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    My friend Steven who currently lives in my loft, and has for the past 2+ years is finally moving out with Nik.
    Means I get the loft to myself which also means- no more sleeping on the floor. Soon I get to sleep on a floor; but with a mattress! :D

    Ah... my life is terrible, but getting better. Still, got a nice 'new' desk chair from Nik for helping with his flat.

    Any good news from you lot?

    "If you don't change your beliefs, your life will be like this forever. Is that good news?" ~W. Somerset Maugham

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    January 28th, 2012

Ben is a 23 year old male from United Kingdom.

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Hi, I'm Ben, and I'm bored most of the time, even though I try to find entertaining things to do.

I am an atheist, pro-choice and all that shit because I'm quite tired of people using other's thoughts to justify their own actions.
I drift off in my head a lot and write odd things.

I'm also currently writing a comic. Snippets are in my booths.

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