Haha son of a bitch, I am hopeless.
Its has become quite apparent that I am going to be single forever. I just cant speak to pretty girls, my brain stops working, or works too hard and I over analyze everything I want to say and I end up saying nothing in a long uncomfortable silence.
Last night I went to White Spot with my parents, and I couldnt even talk the pretty girl who was serving us, I just froze and made a complete ass out of myself. When I was 16 I thought it was normal, but now Im almost 22 and it feels like Im getting worse. If I prove my friends right and eventually become a 40 year old virgin I might just snap haha.
So it turns out one of my grandpas I have never met is in the hospital and not doing so good, so my mom and aunts have been going to his house and packing up his stuff and distributing it throughout the family (he is apparently very rich). I got a military knife and may be getting a samurai sword, but my favorite thing has to be this. You know when you're walking around town and you see some douchebag with a pocket watch?, ya thats me now. All I need is a monocle and a stovepipe hat to complete my goal of being the classiest man in Canada.
Also, I may have a date tonight, but I think I am going to cancel. I got Skyrim yesterday so my schedule is just too full for girls right now haha.
I couple days ago I found out that I have a third disney channel, and that every day at 12:30 and 1:00 am they play the 90s X-men and Gargoyles cartoons. Those were probably my two favorite shows when i was like 8 years old, and now they are just randomly on together 10 years later. I have a new favorite hour of the day.
I dont want to go to sleep.
I have been having these really intricate dreams the last couple days, they are all basically the same plot but different settings and people. I really dont want to have another one, they are depressing haha.
And to make it even worse, when I do wake up Im in a cold sweat, so the whole sleeping experience is not really enjoyable lately.
Im just hoping it is because I have been sick.
I also just noticed how wrinkly my forehead is when I raise my eyebrows...
Soo last week I went to the midnight release of Battlefield 3 and I sorta havnt stopped playing it since... if you thought I didnt leave my room or talk to girls before you havnt seen anything yet.
I also just started watching Happy Endings, Damon Waynes jr is awesome if I ever get a boat I am definitely going to to name it Buoy's On The Side.