Decided to turn my life around today. I realized that there are simple things i find very enjoyable and that make me a happier person inside. I found that there was no use in sulking over sad things that have been happening recently and to be honest. I can put those behind me and never look back. Whether it had been the teenage issues, self esteem issues, or family issues i had. They don’t matter to my anymore. I wont let them pull me down. I will fix them, yes, but i can also do things that make me happy. Such as, just forgetting. Its rather hard, when its something i wish i could keep forever. But in the end, it will just stress me out.
Therefor, i made a list of things and instead of wasting the rest of my summer in my room. I pick my head up and enjoy life! I had no idea, waking up before dawn and watching the sun rise was going to be anything special. In my eyes though ,it was beautiful. Who knew, that spending extra time with my dogs could be so much fun! or facing my fears. I would have never sat out in the rain and listen to the thunder. Though i did and i absolutely love it~ Nature is a big influence now on how i look at everything. I want to be up early and be out, i want to stay up late and look up at the stars. Imagine and let my mind go free. I even wore shorts for the first time and flaunted the bruises i have from being clumsy.
I am happy with myself and happy with the situation i am in. Its all i can do to survive in this crazy world, but hell. Its worth it.
Had the most awesome time at Bristol Renaissance Faire opening day! Got to take my picture with two out of the six members of The Dread Crew Of Oddwood <3 Riven Rahl and Gunmaster Castle were the nicest pirates ever!! : D
I look so crazy! Chillin in my recital costume at what, 5:30 AM? Gotta wear it to summer school , which really sucks. School's from 7 am to 12 and my dress rehearsal is at 10am! Time to get made fun of for wearing clown make up and lets hope my costume doesn't poke out of my shirt! : D
