My boyfriend and i went and saw his friends band play on Saturday:
3 Son Green (awesome music, check ‘em out). It was the most trance-y, flowing and intimate time him and I have had in a while. We were both above normality and he wrapped his arms around me and we swayed, we danced and we spun. Beautiful.
Hes like "oh, you're forcing me to take a picture? Badass pose, flip my hat back and stare at the camera"
I'm like "I'm next to him:3"
I have the greatest boyfriend ever. Its deeper than any other relationship ive been in. Its like were really good friends as well as lovers. I like it alot.
Its understandable if something comes up. but the excuse “i lost track of time” isnt okay with me. Asking me to come over when you’re finished with our plans (excluding me) doesnt make up for it either.
It makes me want to shove you away and shut you out. It makes me feel like you dont deserve me and you’re putting me as an option not a priority- not acceptable.
So now I’m gonna sit home alone, eat xanax, smoke herb and watch movies on my laptop until i fall asleep.
I hope you have a great night
Just got done dancing! I feel so refreshed. I made a video, its pretty awesome.
Scene Girl.
Alone time from the boyfriend today was definitely nice. I love being in his arms but i love time to myself also. Good day today. I got a new necklace too (: I might post a picture of that later.
Dyed my hair a darker red brown. I like it alot. Ruined my shirt and covered my boyfriends bathroom in hair dye. Oops.
Struggling alot more with freedom and commitment. I think i need to spend less than every day with Julian (boyfriend) in order to preserve the sanctity of our relationship. I just want everything to stay perfect.
The fear of being emotionally suppressed and attacked, has resurfaced though. Its a never ending nightmare. Thanks ex boyfriend for destroying me.