Yeah, yeah, yeah – I know, it’s ridiculously late to be boothing pictures from the gathering last Friday, but seriously, I’ve been so busy that I haven’t been able to get round to it. After this picture, I still have pictures I want you all to see from Saturday Night where I went up to Northampton to go clubbing for my cousin’s 21st Birthday AND also a picture from the train-journey back to London. So, yes, lots of booths… so why haven’t I been on the case?
Well, Friday, as you can see was the gathering; it wasn’t too organised, but for a gathering in winter A LOT of people turned up. People like @glitterandmoredoom (who you can see with me in the bottom left corner), usually Orla can’t make it to gatherings but she made her way across for this one, and @mandy_88 who I haven’t seen since late October or September. It was pretty massive. I spent most of the day with @mandy_88, @xfawnx, @jerry and others. And then in the evening a group of us went to Spoons for drinks, this is when me and @cassg08 spent more time together (we didn’t much at the gathering, cause we’re like ALWAYS together usually anyway), @sebastian_t took loads of photo (resulting in the top two beauties) and @danisnotonfire and my mate @asalariana came to meet us.
Just like my previous Friday I went clubbing in Popstarz with @lomasca, @cassg08 and @strangebob2009 – but this time I had a larger group of people coming, some off the back of the gathering and anyone I had given a flyer out. We only JUST got into the club for free, skimming in at 11. The night was amazing, and I stayed out ridiculously late and lost my keys. Getting home at 5AM, even though I had to be up at 10AM the next day.
After mum yelled enough, and @cassg08 had realised she’d lost her voice, we rolled out of bed around 11.30AM. The family meal was at 1PM. Onto a train mum and I went, and I was really grouchy. Eventually getting to the family meal in Northampton at 2.20PM, I sat down and ordered a cider. I knew I had to do it. I was meant to be going out for my cousins 21st Birthday, and I needed to be at my peak… so starting early was my only option… hair of the dog to get rid of the bad mood. It worked, but I made sure I also got 2 hours shut eye back at my nans, before heading to my cousins to get ready for the night out.
I could sit her and describe how great that night out was, but seeing as I’m planning on boothing pictures from that night, I’ll save that tale for another time.
Sunday we got back midday, I monged out, fully in the knowledge that the next couple days I was going to be working hard. Monday hit, and I was up, off to the therapist. I had a breakthrough session, where finally things she was saying to me started to make sense. She struck some chords with me. She had picked up on my loneliness dilemma I have, and through that she found the word “selfish”.
I was talking about people and the things they say about me, and one of the main things I kept on repeating was the word selfish. She asked if I felt I was, and I replied no. Personally, I’ve always thought I care too much about people… people can’t see it, or don’t understand it – I put other people before myself, but as soon as my actions seem selfish, people label me with it.
Talking more she enquired why the word is such a bad thing – afterall, all people can act selfish at times, and everyone has selfish moments. A lot of the time when the word is used it’s an emotional response to a moment in time, and maybe yes, in that moment I did act selfish or I came across that way – doesn’t mean I was innately selfish. And I responded, that being selfish meant I was a bad person.
She went on to say how it really didn’t make me a bad person, but it’s that connection that makes me react so heavily when the word is used. When it comes down to it, the word selfish is just a word… and if I know for sure that I’m not a selfish person, then it shouldn’t hurt me. It doesn’t matter, it’s just a word.
Once she said this, my head clicked and I facepalmed. It made me think of @cheektv and the many conversations we have had about what is offensive and what isn’t. Gary finds the word faggot very offensive, and he asked me once if I did. I responded that I didn’t because it was just a word. No matter what it is intended to represent, no matter how much bad intent is put behind the word or even if it is just used in ignorance, I doubt it will ever offend me as I know it is just a word. That’s what I explained to Gary then, and now, my therapist was essentially saying the same thing back to me about the word selfish.
This was the breakthrough in my therapy. I left feeling like the sessions are now working, I went to Camden and got my lip rings changed to 8mm now that they’ve healed and I went home and filmed and edited my Lost Vlog and the music video for In For The Kill. Before I went to bed, I was still buzzing and motivated, I wrote a list of things I wanted to get done the next day.
Tuesday; tidy-up room, have a bath, upload In For The Kill video, record Community Channel response video, record Mr. Freaky video, contact @jackhoward, contact @jerry, contact @nsgmusic, contact @cassg08, contact joe, watch lost.
Out of all of those things, I achieved all of them on Tuesday. It was a busy day, but after I had done it, I had two videos waiting to be edited, another one uploaded on imustbeTINO, a new song recorded, plans finalised for other projects and NSG invited me round to his to work on some of my tracks. So I did it again, I wrote a list for Wednesday.
Wednesday; edit community channel response video, upload community channel response video, film lost vlog video, contact @xfawnx, contact @jackhoward, contact @tom_bacon about RantTank, go to NSG’s at 12PM, dailybooth and complete some more tracks.
Now, with Wednesday, I was running a bit late. But I made it to NSG’s, he taught me loads of new skills which I can now apply to all of my demos and push my music even further. I contacted Fawn about plans for my T-Shirt company, I contacted Jack, I contacted Bacon and I’ll be going over his tomorrow night, I edited and uploaded a new video to mrtinoforever and right now I’m dailybooth.
Okay, I didn’t achieve as much as I did Tuesday, but it’s a start and it’s a lot. I guess I’ll film my Lost Vlog tomorrow to upload on Saturday – I’m sorry that I’ve been late with uploading them in time, but hopefully now that is sorted. But for now, my priority is my music. It’s shaping up well, and my goal is to have an album out in late May. Just in time for the Mr.Men RantTank Gathering, so be there, or you wont get a limited edition CD!
Anyway, that’s my update of what I’ve been DOING, and hopefully it wont be too long until my next booth and I can tell you what I got up to on Saturday night and also tell you my plans for a bright purple Tino future… but for now, here are my goals to be achieved by the end of the week.
1. Apply my new production skills to all my tracks
2. Record at least 4 tracks
3. Film, edit & upload FML I’M LOST: Lighthouse by Saturday
4. Edit Mr. Freaky ready for upload on Tuesday
5. Visit Tom Bacon to organise final project
6. Have T-Shirt design completed by Sunday
7. Get @cassg08’s vocals
8. Help film, edit & direct @cassg08’s next video
9. Master and mix parody track FML
10. Dailybooth at least twice before Monday
I went shopping today, I never shop unless I need to (like if there are holes forming in my clothes or something), but it was for a very important matter!
You'll find out next week!
